Having No Regrets (A One Direction Love Story)

Willow's POV

I stopped by the hospital to see Luna and gave her some food that I made. She really appreciated it and it was the least I could do for her, considering I know what hospital food tastes like. She told me about how Zayn had stopped by with more donuts and once again, tried to apologize. My guess would be that no matter how many boxes of donuts Zayn brings her or no matter how many times he apologizes, Luna is most likely not going to forgive him. If she does, it would be a very long time from now.

Brendon called me when I got back to the apartment to rant more about Zayn. I was the only one right now who knew about his feelings for Luna so I was the person he went off about it to when he was pissed at something Zayn said or did. I barely got a word in and after a half hour, I had to lie and tell him Rain was hungry and I had to feed her so I wouldn't have to listen to him any longer. Don't get me wrong, I love Brendon and he's truly an amazing friend but after hearing the endless lectures about his hatred for Zayn, it got to a point where it was just old. I wouldn't be surprised if he wanted to stay the night with Luna again as soon as she would be released from the hospital.

Liam wasn't home because he had gone out to eat with some of the guys. I was honestly surprised he wasn't with Violet. I was tired and I decided to take a nap so I went upstairs to the bedroom. When I got in there, I noticed something strange. There was a pair of black panties on the floor. I just stared at them until I remembered that I don't own black panties. Was Liam doing anything with another girl?

Just then, I heard the door open and close. Footsteps came up the stairs and Liam appeared in the doorway smiling.

"Hey, how was Luna doing today?" He asked.

"Good, she's been eating more, taking her medication and she'll be able to get out in a few days. I even brought her some food." I replied as Liam nodded.

"You know what happened today that was pretty out of the ordinary?" I asked.

"What would that be?"

I fake laughed. "Well, you see, I came up here to take a nap when something on the floor caught my eye."

"Was it like a big spider or something?"

I pointed to the panties. "No, actually, it was that."

"I told her to take those home." Liam muttered under his breath.

This is where I got even more concerned. "Her? Who exactly is her? And what exactly was the situation where she needed to take her panties off and throw them on the floor?"

"Her would be Violet and it's not what you think." Liam said.

"Oh, of course it's her!" I said throwing my hands up in the air. "It's not what I think? You expect me to believe that a pair of another girl's panties on the floor of our bedroom isn't what I think? That's fucking rich."

"She called earlier while you were visiting Luna and said her shower wasn't working so I offered to let her use ours." Liam shrugged. "I don't see what the big deal is and I didn't know she left her panties here."

"But you said you told her to take them home." I said confused.

"I came in here after she was done and got dressed and I noticed them on the floor and I reminded her to take them with her before she left. I went back downstairs and figured she would do that but I guess she forgot."

No, Liam. A girl who is into you that way doesn't just "forget" her panties. This was clearly something that was done on purpose. She wanted him to see her underwear and get fascinated by them.

"Did she just forget them? Or did you feel the need to have a girl with you who gives you her all?" I crossed my arms.

"Willow, the fact that you would assume something like that is so fucked up!" Liam spat.

"Her underwear is on the floor of our bedroom, you can't not expect me to get suspicious about that." I defended myself.

"I don't have to deal with this shit right now." Liam shook his head frustratingly. "And even if something was going on with her and I, at least I'd probably be getting it better from her."

Without another word, he stormed out of the bedroom, down the stairs and out the door. That was all he ever seemed to do instead of facing his problems. I didn't want to deal with his shit either anyway. I wanted a drink so badly but remembered once again that Rain is here so that wouldn't be a good idea.

Instead, I grabbed my song notebook and began to write some more lyrics in it.

We used to never go to bed angry

But it's all we ever do lately

And you're turning away like you hate me

Do you hate me? (x2)

Oh

You can take this heart

Heal it or break it all apart

No, this isn't fair

Love me or leave me here (x3)

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In the morning, I woke up to find Liam's side of the bed empty. I honestly didn't care all that much, which sounds really bad but after what he said to me yesterday, I still didn't feel like seeing him.

I decided that I wanted to go visit Luna. Before doing that, I fed Rain and then made some more food to bring to Luna. I put the food in a container with a lid and then picked up Rain along with her car seat and went to the car. 

Once I got Rain in her car seat, I got into the driver's side and drove off to the hospital. I didn't want to bring up the argument from last night. Luna was already dealing with enough problems right now without me dumping my own bullshit on her. Plus, her situation with Zayn was much worse than mine with Liam.

Seeing Luna yesterday with the ring box in her hands and crying broke my heart. Despite the fucked up shit Zayn did to her, she really did still love him and I know she would have said yes to his proposal, had he only done it in advance. Luna did absolutely nothing wrong. She gave him nothing but love and respect and getting treated like shit is what he gave her in return. Brendon is right, she really does deserve so much better. I knew he was talking about himself when he told her all that and as concerned as I am about where him and Sarah are headed as a couple, at least he doesn't treat her like shit.

I got out of the car and took Rain out while she was still in the car seat. I hoped seeing Rain again would help to cheer Luna up. It helped the last time and I knew her baby is everything to her, which makes me happy. I was really proud of her for getting through all of this so far. I know if it were me in that position, I'd probably be a lot worse at coping with it.  

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A/N: The song Willow wrote this time is "Love Me Or Leave Me" by Little Mix (aka the four queens)