Irritated To The Point Of Destruction

Chapter 40

Chapter 40

Ashanti

Why was Marquez calling me? Better yet, how? I ignored the call. I just sat there, numb, desensitized, and in the state of shock. Why, was all this happening to me? Why did these people want me dead? What did I do? There, were so many questions, with no answers. I knew that if I acted irrational, I'd put everyone's lives at stake but, I had to do something. "So, my question is this. Who are these people that want me dead? And where can I find them? I'm not a delicate flower, I can take care of myself. I'll give Tae, to Kennon's mom and I'll go do whatever it is to get these people to leave my family alone." No one spoke, I  was becoming annoyed, these big bad motherfuckers​ were scared acting like bitches. So without much thought, I got up and walked out of the house, I didn't care anymore. I texted Keyona and told her that I needed a favor, of course she was down and her mother was down too. Tae, could go to St. Thomas and have a wonderful life, be a kid and not have a worry in the world. I was crying, I got in my car and started it, I looked in the review and saw all those guy's looking for me. I pulled off and didn't look back, I couldn't I now knew that the past year and a half of my life had been a huge lie. No one was giving me answers. No one wanted me to know why, I was so numb. I texted Latrice and told her I loved her. I told her that Rico was alive and where she could find him. She texted back but, I turned my phone on airplane mode. If I was going to die, I wanted to have peace before hand, fuck them and their secrets. Fuck this world and this bullshit life, I'm done. I drove towards Marquez's old apartment, and sure enough his car was there. I had a loaded gun, a tazer and nothing to lose. I walked like I had no care in the world, I kind of skipped down the hallway, I walked up four flights of stairs, I didn't complain,  I started humming Chris Brown's "Back to sleep". I giggled when, I got to his apartment door, and I rang the doorbell, I hid so he couldn't see. When, he opened the door, I hit him in the nose with the butt of the gun. I walked over him and pulled him inside. I closed and locked the door. I tazed him, and made sure no one was in the house. I wait until he was claim. "Hey, love. Can we talk? I have so many questions I have to ask you! I hope your nose isn't broken. Focus,  Marquez, focus. You have a lot of explaining to do love,  a whole lot. "  He, tried to get up, so I tazed him again. Oh this was going to be fun. I had so much hatred in my heart, I've never been a hateful person. I was, the life of the party and just happy to be alive. I looked at Marquez, and I felt so much hatred and anger in my heart,  where love once lived. This, man single handedly changed my life for the worst, he lied to me, he took something from me that, I thought I'd only ever give to one man, he played me. I kicked him in the face, I kicked him repeatedly, and with every kick more and more hatred left my body. But, I wanted to hurt him more, the abortion wasn't enough, the beatings weren't enough. There, had to be something else, I couldn't put my finger on it. I stopped kicking him, I sat down and I  really thought about how I could get his attention. "I think I'm gonna go to make a visit to your mom. I mean she may not be breathing after the fact but, I'm gonna do it. Yeah I think imma go now." His eyes popped open,  and he tried moving fast but, he regretted that decision as soon as he made it. "Shanti, wait. wait baby please"

Marquez tried getting up but he continued to fall I laughed everytime he fell cause honestly the shit was funny as hell the more he tried to get up the more he fell and I busted out laughing everytime. "Shanti baby please... Don't tell my mama." Really now he begging me not to tell his mama should I be nice and not tell? Hell nah I opened the door then walked out with a smile on my face I skipped to my car then got in, I started the car before I pulled off I took one last look at the place I once called home it wasn't a home anymore it was a place of lies and deceitfulness. I drove off to Marquez's mom's house I hadn't been to see mama Yvonne in awhile so I figured that now would be a wonderful time to drop by and chat with her, Mama Yvonne was like a second mother to me so it was going to truly hurt me to tell her everything that is going on but she had to know what her son is up to. I pulled up to mama Yvonne's house I turned the car off then I got out surprisingly mama Yvonne was sitting outside being nosey as usual then she saw me. "Oh my goodness look what the cat drug in." I laughed and hugged her then I sat down beside her. "Hey mama Yvonne how you been doing?" "Chile I'm making it the best I can considering you're the only one that's been to see me." It shocked me that Marquez hadn't been to see his own mother as much as he claimed that he loved her I was kinda nervous to tell her everything that was going on but like I said before she needs to know that her son is no good. "Well I'm here now I came by to talk to you about Marquez." Mama Yvonne cocked her head to the side and looked at me. "What has that boy done now I swear he always doing shit he ain't supposed to." I had never heard mama Yvonne cuss it was funny but I knew that she was serious so I knew that I couldn't hesitate on the situation so I sighed but before I could open my mouth I saw Marquez's car pulll up. "Damn." I couldn't tell her now cause Marquez would deny everything just to keep up a good image in front of his mother mama Yvonne looked up and saw her son approaching. "Well well well is it my birthday or something?" Marquez laughed and kissed her cheek. "Hey mama how are you doing?" "Better now that my two favorite people are here." I forced a smile as Marquez came and stood by me were we really about to put on a front for his mother? He set me up just so I wouldn't tell her he knew what he was doing but this was far from over.