Irritated To The Point Of Destruction

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

Ashanti

"Why did you have to kill him?" tears fall down my face, Marquez walks over to me but I couldn't look him in the eyes because of what he told me. "I had to do what was best for us, so you should be happy that he's out of the picture." Marquez walks towards me then he tries to hold me but I push him off of me. "Get the fuck. off of me and get the fuck out of my house" I told him. He looked​ at me with a confused look on his face, not believing what I just told him. "Come on now, you need to calm down" he tries to wrap his arms around me but I push him. "You heard what I said get out of my house!!!" I yell at him because now I am pissed off then Marquez says "Babe, I killed that fucker so he doesn't try to hurt you but you mad at me for killing him? Alright then, I'll leave, call me when you ready to talk" Marquez walks​ away from me then he leaves, I am still crying on the bed. Why am I crying about my baby daddy getting killed? What the fuck is going on with me? I should be happy that he's dead because all of the things Kennon did to me. I remember when he would beat me up when he was pissy drunk and we got into a argument one day. We were together but this is before I got pregnant, we both lived with our parents at the time but he would come over and chill. My mom was gone, he came over, he knocked on the door while I was talking to Latrice, I told her that I'll talk to her later then I went to the door, Kennon's dumbass smelled like pussy and liqour, I asked him "Why the fuck do you smell vanilla bean perfume?" "I was at the club and some girl was dancing on me but it's nothing baby, you know I love you" he told me a cockamania story and I asked him "You lying like hell because I could smell it real strong so who was the bitch you was fucking before you came over here? Because it sure as hell wasn't me" I put my hands on my hips and cocked my head at Kennon. "Just leave the shit alone Ashanti, I already told you the story and I'm sticking to it plus I'm drunk and I need a place to crash, can I crash here for tonight?" his body wobbling while he tries to walk to me. ",Hell nah nigga, go sleep with that other bitch you just got done fucking and tell her that you need to crash at her house" I tried to close the door but he pushed the door, when he got in the house, he closed the door. We were argue and cussing each other out, then he starts to act all belligerent and calling me out my name, Kennon tries to feel on my booty and I grab his hands and knee him in the nuts, he falls to the ground. "I'm fucking done with you, get out of my mommy's house with your drunk ass" I told him but he got up and started beating me up, telling that I will never be with anyone better than him,. He punch me in the stomach, and slapping me in the face, I punch him in the face, I hip toss that muthafucka like I was Ronda Rousey, then I put him in a armbar, he was trying to get out of it but I had my legs tight around his arm. I'm talking shit to him while I have him in a armbar then I see him trying to get up, once he got up he picks me up with my legs still tight on his arm and he slams me on the floor, I let go because my back started to hurt, he is laying on the floor breathing heavy. We are both laid out and tired, yeah, we did like we were in a wrestling match but I was not going to let him beat me up, I get up slowly and he gets​ up slowly then I said "Get the fuck o--" this bombastic asshole does a RKO out of nowhere and then walks to the door, then he said "I got you bitch, you put up a good fight but I got the last laugh" he laughed at me and leaves, a few weeks later, that's when we started to get back together then we had sex and I got pregnant then this asshole disappears off the face of the earth, no calling me to see if the baby and I are okay, no text message, no visiting me and Kennontae, his ass was not at the hospital to sign the birth certificate. I come to realize that I am crying for a man who really wasn't there for me and  Kennontae until a year ago when he came out of hiding and wanted to be in his son's life. I thought about the good times which made me cry and I thought of the bad things but should I be happy for  Kennon being killed or should I just stay here and cry about a man who I don't love anymore?

a day later, I wake up feeling nausious, I run to the bathroom and throw up in the toilet, I flush the toilet then I let out a big ass fart, damn it stink so bad that I use the spray in the bathroom. I sit on the toilet to go to the bathroom. I was thinking about what Marquez said to me but I never thought that he would kill someone, he did it for me and Kennontae. There's a saying that say if a man love you he would do anything for you and that's what Marquez did, he would kill for me and that's a ride or die nigga, I just hope that the police don't catch him because I don't want him to go to jail, I want him to be with me not locked up to where I have to talk to him through a glass window, it will hurt me to my core to see him in prison. It's crazy how my life is now, with dumbass being dead, I ask myself "Am I pregnant? I threw up a few days later and we haven't had sex in a few days" I'm thinking to myself. I get up and run to my purse to get a pregnancy test. A bitch had to go to the store and buy a pregnancy test to be on the safe side. I grab it out of my bag and run back to the bathroom with pants and panties still on the floor, I nearly fell on the floor but kept my balance. I sit back down on the toilet and piss on the test, I hope I'm not pregnant because if I am, mommy and my brothers are going to have a cow. I wait for a few minutes to see if I am, fuck I'm scared to see what it will say. I look at it and it says not pregnant, whew I was scared, I finished going to the bathroom then I flush the toilet and wash my hands. I got in my bed and I go to sleep but the question that I think about is why did I throw up? Maybe the shit Kennon put in my drink and now it's out of my system.