Irritated To The Point Of Destruction

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

Ashanti

Even though I didn't care for Kennon my son's father was dead my heart sank how would I tell my baby boy his father was dead Chocolate looked at me he could tell I was stressing on how to tell Tae this.. "Bae don't worry we will get through this together." I hugged him even though this happen he was there for me like nothing happen my phone was ringing I answered it.. "Hello yes ma'am okay we on our way." I hung up & put my clothes on "We gotta get back to the hospital let's go bae." Chocolate got up and put his clothes back on then we get in the car and head back to the hospital what's  happened now? We sat in silence once again. I just couldn't wrap my brain the fact that my first love my first everything, was gone. I was angry with Kennon last time I saw him. There was so much I wanted to say. "Bae, I want you to know that we didn't intend on hurting him to the point of death. We just wanted to rough him up" "We?" I had thought that my brother's were acting skeptical at the hospital but I would've never thought. "Yeah bae it was Quan's homeboy Damingo. He was supposed to just rough him up" "I understand Marquez, I just don't want to think or talk about it no more please"

We pulled up at the hospital then we get out the car and went inside I see my mom talking to my dad looked like she was chewing his ass out along with my brothers she stopped and looked at me then walked over to me she hugged me. "I haven't told Tae yet the nurse is checking his vitals." I walked to Tae's room my mind was racing how am I going to explain this? Chocolate walked over to me. "We will get through this together bae." We walk into Tae's room and I kiss my baby boy on the forehead as hot new tears stream down my face.. "Hey mommy, hey Marquez mommy where's daddy?" Oh my god here it comes the one thing I dreaded the most.."Hey bubba. uh daddy. Daddy had a real bad headache and he went home to lay down" "Is, he going to come back to watch Squarepants with me? Mommy you know me and daddy love Patrick and Squarepants" "He's not coming bubba. He's just not coming" How do you tell a 4 year old that his father is dead? This is some crazy shit... I held it together this time. I didn't cry, I just felt numb and that damn pain was back. "Ms..Perez, may I speak to you?" "Yes sir" Dr. Vaughn took me aside and spoke in a very low tone. "When was the first date of ur last period?" "I'm not sure why? Am I pregnant? I havent had unprotected sex" Once again, I had to think back. There was that one time two months ago, Chocolate and I got busy in the VIP room at the club. "Oh shit!" DR. Vaughn, gave me a smile "I'll make you an appointment with the OBGYN"  I walked back over to Chocolate and Tae Chocolate knew something was wrong he looked at me and mouthed. "What's wrong bae?" I looked at him and shook my head but he kept looking at me and I knew he wouldn't stop staring til I told him I looked at him then whispered in his ear. "Your gonna be a daddy." he looked at me kissed my forehead I smiled and watched cartoons with Tae I still had to find a way to tell my son his daddy's dead this was all to much for me in one day. I decided to wait until he came home to tell him. "Uh, Marquez I don't feel good. I want to go home, I'm gonna ask when they're releasing Tae." "Okay baby, just relax. Get in the bed with Tae and I'll do it" I really didn't want to be left alone with Tae right now."Hey Bubba, can we talk, woman to boy?" "Okay mommy, lets talk" I snuggled up to my little man and took a deep breath "You remember how mommy said that daddy wouldn't be coming to see you?" "Yeah, I'm upset with him" "Well, Tae daddy had another accident. And he didn't make it.Your Daddy died baby." he was silent, and then he grabbed my waist, and began crying. I held my baby and rocked him and we had good cry together. "I'm so sorry Tae, your daddy loved you so much"

Tae cried and hugged me I knew my baby boy's heart hurt because his daddy is no longer with him I wanted to make it better for him but I didn't know how to he looked at me with tears in his big brown eyes.. "Mommy I wanna go home." I looked at him and kissed his forehead "Okay baby boy Marquez went to ask Dr. Vaughn." What could I do to make him feel better god help me. I felt a new set of arms around me. I looked up and it was Chocolate, he hugged and rocked Tae with me. I didn't feel alone anymore, I felt whole. I had two of the greatest guys a girl could ask for. Plus a new life growing inside of me. "Tae, guess what" "What mama?" "You're gonna be a big brother!" happiness and joy spread across his little face.Tears of joy ran down mine "Come on lil man. let's go home" "Okay Marquez. I'm tired of they cartoons anyway"

I got up and walked over to my mama and told her I was headed home cause I wasn't feeling to well. "Okay mija call me when you make it home." Tae hugged his nana and walked to the car we got in the car and drove home on the way home Tae asked me. "Mommy am I gonna have a brother or a sister?" A smiled spread across my face he was really excited about this and Chocolate was too.. "I don't know yet Tae we gotta wait and see bubba." We make it home and I get out of the car and run in the house to the bathroom I was sick oh shit here we go again I can do this I've been through it once I think I can handle it. I heeved and heeved. I had to get a gingerale or something. "Marquez!! Oh my god I need you!" I hated being sick, it made me feel weak. I wanted to tell my mom but I couldn't get up from the bathroom floor "Marquez!" I began screaming and crying all at once. I finally got up and made it to my room, to see that my guys were fast asleep. I got my phone and tiptoed back out the room. "Mommy I need you. " I was crying again "Shanti what's wrong mija?" "I'm pregnant ma. please can you come help me?" my mother said a few praises to God in spanish then told me "Oh my sweet girl, mama's on her way right now" Thank you lord jesus for such a wonderful mother.