for him {k.nj+k.sj}

regrets (34)

I ran after him, my legs heavy. He kept cussing, his pace faster than mine. I fell to the ground, tripping over my own feet.

I watched as tears fell from his face, his feet running into trafic, no one stopping for him. A semi truck, going full speed, crashed into his body.

I screamed, his body falling backwards. Every thing seemed to be in slow motion, blood splattering the truck and ground.

I fell from my knees, my whole body going numb.

"Jin..I thought you loved me.."  a voice floated behind my ear. I turned around, his body seemed to be standing before me. I reached out for him,but my hand passed through him.

"I do love you- Namjoon- Please..Don't leave me!" I yelled, standing to my feet.

"You don't love me- You would've saved me..our love is meaningless." He screeched back. My heart broken, my face filled with tears.

"S-Stop!" I sobbed, running from him. I ran past his body, the crime scene, police and citizens flooded the area.

He appeared in front of me, he could touch me, yet I couldn't touch him. He pushed me, making me fall onto an old couch.

I sobbed, his hand grasping around my neck. "You were mine.." I gasped, my world turning dark.

~~~

I jumped up, Namjoon shaking me. I eyed him, his face red and stained with tears. I grasped his shoulders, gasping loudly.

He tackled me, wrapping his arms around me. I felt tears fall from his face onto my shirt, my smile weak.

"I love you..I love you..I love you.." He repeated, his voice in mumbles. I dug my nails into his bare back, crying again.  "Are you okay? Baby?" He panted.

I nodded, wrapping my legs around his waist. "Was it about that thing Hoseok and Yoongi said? I wasn't asleep..I heard. Don't worry, we don't have to rush anything; let's fix everything before anything else.." He rubbed my legs, inching his hand to my thighs.

I gulped and smiled, "I wasn't on rushing either..." I answered, inching my face to his. Our lips connected, his hands hungrily clenching my thighs.

"Wait.." I gasped, pulling away from the kiss. I moved away from him. "S-Spank me.." I mumbled, bending my body over his thighs.

"I can't..I don't want to hurt y-" I pushed my hand against his mouth, quieting him.

"Just do it! I want i-" I gasped, flinching as his hand hit me. It was quick and painful, I clenched the side of the bed.

"Are you okay? I don't have to do th-" 

"Do it on my bare ass.." I hissed, tugging at his arms. I helped him take my boxers off, he flung them across the room.

Again, the rush hit me quickly, causing me to wiggle my legs. I let out a sigh, smiling.

"Jin- You just woke up, we don't have to do th-" He sighed as I got to my knees, sitting on the bed beside him. I ran my fingers across the rim of his boxers.

He let out a sigh, his nostrils flaring. Namjoon slapped my hand, furrowing his eyebrows at me. He pulled up the covers, putting them over himself.

I frowned, getting out of the bed. I picked up my boxers and put them on. I checked my phone, the light hurting my eyes. It was only three in the morning.

"Fuck..." I muttered, getting in the bed. I was mad, I felt empty without Namjoon. He was back, but I was frustrated still.

I clenched the bed, feeling my face become red. I was sexually mad, I needed him. I rolled my eyes and turned to the wall.

~~~

I put on a pair of jeans and a pink tshirt. I didn't feel like messing with my hair too much, so I threw on a hat.

I sighed, Namjoon rushing out of the room as I sat down to do my makeup.

After I finished my makeup, I could smell pancakes in our room. I slugged out of the room, grabbing a plate.

I sat down on a chair, eyeing Namjoon who was focused on the TV, Hoseok giggling like an idiot as a puppy appeared on the screen.

I watched as he didn't look at me once, even when he focused on his pancakes. He quickly finished and put the plate in the sink.

I rushed behind him as he started to clean his plate. I put my plate beside his, wrapping my arms around his chest.

"Can you take me shopping for clothes, Joonie?" I sung, grasping his black shirt. He nodded, humming a song.

I smiled as I kissed his cheek. "After you finish up cleaning?" I smiled. He nodded again,grasping my hand with one of his.

I smiled again, hugging him tightly. Inside, I was still mad. Even rubbing my dick against him made me angry, I just wanted him.

//AU: Sorry this is bad. I'm at a party and I can't let anyone see me sin.