Remembering Us

1.27 Chances

Ellie

1.27

Chances

   It’s been a week and a half since the day I erased John’s memories, that same day John went missing by night. I tried so hard to find him that finding him wasn’t enough. We eventually found him at the Dairy King eating ice cream alone. When Sam went to him and he talked to me, I felt like something inside of me broke. Seeing him was hard but talking to him but not being able to hold his hand, to hug him, to kelt with him and to kiss him killed me inside. He’s still my lab partner in Biology class and my partner in home economics but it’s getting hard to look at him without remembering what we’re supposed to be.

“Ellie” John called

“Yeah?” I said

“Mrs. Gen called you to answer the question” He said

“I’m sorry Ma’am, I don’t know the answer to your question” I said

Hearing him call me Ellie hurts when he could call me L like he used to.

“What’s wrong Ellie?” He asked

“It’s nothing, I just have a headache” I said

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   He sometimes walks right past me without noticing me. At lunch he always talks to Leian and Mhyka while I only talk to Sam. I can’t remember a time where I never thought about John, he’s the one who brought me back into this world and he’s the only one that makes sense in this miserable supernatural life.

John

I’m sorry

I know he can hear me. I don’t know if he’ll notice but I wanted him to know.

I just lied on my bed thinking of a new line to write on my wall

Making mistakes is a piece of cake

I still love you John Chase

-1.27

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   I went downstairs to just sit on the couch. I already did my homework and it made me more depressed than I already am, remembering to tell John to do his homework and making him do it. I wonder if he’s doing his homework now.

Someone knocked on the door.

“Who is it?” I asked

“It’s Dan” He answered

I stood up and opened the door.

“What do you want?” I asked him

“I wanted to see you” He paused “and give these to you”

“What’s this?” I asked taking the box from him

“It’s your early birthday present” He said

I opened it and I saw it, a gold ring with a dark stone on top.

“What’s this?” I asked again

“It’s a Bloodstone ring” He said

“I’m sorry I can’t take this, it’s worth too much” I refused not a second after he spoke

“It’s fine, take it” he said looking into my eyes

By looking at his eyes, I suddenly can’t refuse him.

The eye contact between me and Dan disappeared when we heard a rip and we both looked towards it. It revealed a guy with spiked hair and glasses; he wore a black jacket, jeans and a blue shirt inside. It was Sam.

“What’re you doing here?” He asked

 “I’m just giving something to her” Dan answered trying to be nice to him

Sam pulled me away from the door with the box still on my hand.

“You may go” He said rudely

The door shut closed by force. It was Sam’s doing.

“What’re you doing talking to him?!” Sam said now angry “DO YOU NOT REMEMBER HOW HE ALMOST KILLED ALL OF OUR FRIENDS, INCLUDING JOHN?!"

“I just opened the door” I whimpered

“But why did you have to talk to him?” Sam asked now calming down “He’s trying to force you to marry him, why can’t you see that?” He continued “Don’t you love John anymore?” He asked “Are you going to make John’s efforts go to waste?” He added

“I-I just opened t-the door hoping to see J-John and there he w-was” I answered weakly as tears welled up in my eyes and started falling on my face

Sam came closer and hugged me.

“I’m s-sorry!” I said

I’m so sorry John!