My Lighthouse

Facing life together

Mark opened the door first and then got Sheila out of the car. He felt all excited that she was here in his house, even though the reason because of it was horrible. He carried her up to his bedroom and lay her down in his bed. Sheila had been more often in his house, but never in his bedroom. When he had thought of her first time in his bed, he had something completely different in mind than this. But he didn't care about that now. She was here and that's all that mattered. Mark covered her with his sheets when he saw she was shivering. Are you cold? I don't know what I am feeling anymore, Sheila whispered. Shall I make you some tea? I will be right back. Mark went downstairs and made tea for them both. His mum had just given him some self made cookies, so he put some on the tray and took it all up. When he walked into the bedroom, he saw her laying with her legs pulled up against her body and her arms around her legs. She was still shivering and tears fell down her face. She was completely broken and it hurt Mark terribly to see her this way. He put the tray down and no matter what she thought of him, he wanted to comfort her. She was still his most important reason for living. He took the sheets aside, crawled into bed as well and lay behind her to pull her close. Sheila protested at first, but she was to weak and his arms around her felt too good. She decided to enjoy his warm body against hers, as long as it lasted and she tried not think at all, right now.

She felt his loving arms around her and it felt so good, that her stomach as well as her heart started hurting again. She loved him more than her own life, but she would never be able to give him, what he wanted so badly. If their relationship would survive and they would like to have children of their own, she would never be able to give him that joy. Sheila didn't even care about Jacky's child anymore. She missed Mark, more than she had realized until now. She stroke his arm, glad to feel it around her. Mark lay against her back, but didn't say a word. He felt his body getting warmer and he had to fight against the memories he still had of Africa. How passionate had she been, every time he touched her. Mark realized it would be tasteless to make love to her now, at a moment where she was as vulnerable as this. But his veins, his muscles everything shouted out his love for her. He knew it wasn't wise, but he had missed her so much that he suddenly kissed her neck and cheek while his hand caressed her belly. I mis you, Mark whispered and suddenly Sheila broke. Her body shocked while she cried out loud and hung on to his arms who he held real close around her. I am so sorry, Mark whispered crying, over and over again. I wish I could turn back time. I am so sorry sweetheart. You are my heart and I broke it. I am so sorry. He pulled her tight against his body and covered his face between her long blond hair. He wanted to comfort her, caress her beautiful body, which she hated so much now.

Sheila made herself as little as a fetus and couldn't stop crying. Mark hold her as close as he could and felt the panic and despair in her whole body. Tears fell down his face when he saw her like this. He tried to turn her around and when she finally did, she looked down at his chest. She didn't wanted to look him in the eye. She knew for sure, he would see how much she still loved him. Mark put his hand under her chin and tried to push her face up to him. She closed her eyes when his face was almost close to hers. Sheila look at me, please! Mark begged her. Tears kept on falling down her face. I don't want to, she whispered. He bended forward and softly started to kiss her tears away. Sheila hadn't expected this, because she still had her eyes closed and the feeling his kisses gave her was overwhelming. She didn't wanted to show him how she felt and looked away. He noticed her breathing going faster, but he didn't know for sure, if it was because of him kissing her, or because of her sadness. He ignored her behavior of looking away from him and kissed her again on her eyes, her cheek down to her lips. Sheila didn't kiss him back at first, but Mark felt it was only a matter of time. His hands carefully caressed her back and her bottom and he saw how she opened up her body towards him. Suddenly he realized, Sheila longed for him just as much as he longed for her. The reason she was so sad, was not just because she couldn't have children of her own, she was fighting against him too. Against the feeling he gave her. He stopped kissing and caressing her.

Look at me, he said firmly. Sheila was surprised by his sudden change in behavior and opened her eyes, like he told her too. That's better, he said more at ease. And while Sheila expected him to talk to her, he suddenly pulled her close and kissed her passionately. Like a curtain that fell down, to exposure her feelings, she completely let herself go. Within seconds their passion got sky high and she lost every sense of reason. Her hands ran through his hair, his back, down to his bottom where she pushed him against her hips. Mark was completely overwhelmed by her reaction and didn't want to understand her response anymore. He just wanted to make love to her, no matter what would come next. He loved her and desperately longed for her, like she appeared to love him just the same. He kissed her passionately while his hands desperately tried to undo her from her clothes. Sheila pulled his shirt out of his trousers and Mark helped her by taking it of for her. They didn't talk but their body language spoke for them. Sheila undressed herself as quick as possible and after Mark did the same, she crawled against him and demanded his body to make love to hers. They kept on kissing each other passionately while Mark lay himself on top of her. She opened her legs to welcome his body and put her legs around him. Her eyes begged him to do what she loved him to do best, and with one strong movement she felt him glide inside of her. She screamed and moaned while she put her fingernails into his bottom and moved underneath him. They both knew each other's rhythm so well, their bodies felt so perfect against each other, that it turned them on even more. Mark moaned out loud and asked her, if she was ready for him. Sheila felt the sweat on his back of the power they put into their movements this time and she panted and begged him to take her now. With a strong and powerful movement Mark felt his climax come and Sheila followed him within an instant. Sheila arched her back and put her hips a bit up to feel him deeper than she already did and couldn't believe the feeling he gave her. Please come back to me, Mark said softly when he lay his body down on hers. She still felt her body shock with Mark's manliness inside of her and moaned, what a way to ask me to change my mind. Mark moved his body just once against hers and she screamed of pleasure. Oh Mark, yes! Yes, I want you back. But how? Mark put his fingertips against her lips. Sshhh, not now. Please not now. He kissed her softly on her lips and was so glad she was here with him again. Sheila looked at him and while her eyes spoke nothing but love for him, she gently caressed his face. How different did I thought my day would end, she smiled. Better or worse, Mark asked her with a naughty smile on his face. Better actually, she answered while she pulled up one eyebrow. You liar, he said out loud and tickled her until she begged him to stop. Okay I feel a little bit better now, but still Mark. What ever happens, I will never be able to give you kids of our own. Did you really think, that this is the most important reason for me to be with you? I love you anyway. Mark slowly moved his body out of her and lay next to her. He kissed her breasts and carefully sucked her nipples. Sheila moaned softly and shortly closed her eyes. Don't tease me this way, mister Feehily, she whispered. I am listening to what you're saying, but you distract me. Mark smiled, I adore you and love you for who you are and not for what you can give me. We will see what our future brings. For now, I only want you around me, no matter what Louis says. Mark pushed himself up and looked down on her. Please come and live with me? Let us face whatever is positive as well as negative together. Please, he begged her with pouting lips. Sheila acted like if she had to think about it for a while, when Mark started to kiss her breasts again and caress her body with his hands. I still don't know, Sheila panted and arched her back, when Mark's tongue teased the skin of her belly down to the soft skin between her legs. But because her body was still recovering of their love game a few minutes before, she couldn't handle his tongue on her soft spot now. When Mark's tongue licked her soft skin she screamed immediately that if he stopped now, she would come and live with him. Mark stopped immediately and took her in his arms to embrace her intensely. You just made me the happiest man on this earth, he said softly. Tea? Sheila burst into laughter and said laughing, I would love to sweetheart. Mark's beautiful blue eyes shined at her when he whispered, welcome home my love and kissed her passionately......