My Lighthouse

The real thing

Mark woke up, when he heard Sheila moan and crawl into his arms. She was still sleeping, which wasn't weird after their energetic night. Mark hoped, his script wouldn't contain to much work for today. He was exhausted. Not just because of the absolutely great way, they made love last night, but also because of the emotions they shared. It had been an eye opener for him as well. What would the future had in mind for them? What if people, especially the press, would find out, that they had an affair? Oh dear and what about Louis?, Mark thought all of a sudden. He would talk to Louis as soon as he had him on the phone. Still, he would find out sooner or later, but he preferred to tell Louis himself. Suddenly Mark was shocked by his own thoughts. What am I saying? He looked at the gorgeous creature, he held in his arms and felt nothing than love for her. Was it true? He knew her for so long. Had he never seen, she was the one for him? Sheila lay with her face on his chest and her arm over his belly. Seeing her, laying here like this, made his heart beat faster already. It felt like coming home. No more feeling of searching for the one and only.
He had sex with so much woman. Sometimes just to satisfy an appetite and sometimes he really thought, he found himself a nice girl. But most of the time, they only fell in love with him because he was a member of Westlife and they longed for this person on their poster, but not the real Mark. They weren't interested in his real me, which made him sad and lonely most of the time. He slowly shook his head. Oh sweetheart and what did I do, when the relationship was over again? I called you, he whispered without her hearing it. I always called you, because you made me feel good again. You made me laugh and I even called you in the middle of night, because I knew I could. I knew, no one was there with you anyway. Suddenly he felt awful. He called her, because he felt lonely. Who did she call? I was only thinking about myself and never a moment about how you would feel. Damn! I have been such an ass.... He looked down at her, how she lay on his chest with this sweet smile of hers. He caressed her face and stroke away a few strings of hair. He kissed her on her forehead and whispered, I love you. I really love you.

Sheila heard him whisper something, but couldn't really understand what he was saying, when she suddenly felt him kissing her forehead and whispering, "I love you. I really love you." She couldn't believe what she just heard. Did he really? Her heart was jumping for joy and she wished she could jump right on him. But he thought, she was sleeping. If she would jump on him now, he would know she overheard him. Maybe he wanted to tell her, some day in a more official way. Not as a marriage proposal, but telling her, he loved her, when she was awake, was quite official already.

She acted, as if she was moving in her sleep and gently stroke her hand over his belly, when she finally lay her hand down, just above his manliness. She heard him breath more quickly and also felt the tension change within his body. Oh Lord, she heard him moan. He didn't wanted to wake her up, not realizing she was already awake. But if she would move her hand just one more inch, he had to wake her up, because his body was torturing him now. What if it got worse? He looked at Sheila's alarm. Just 7 in the morning, but time to wake up. Not that he needed to wake up, he was painfully awake already. Her alarm went of and Sheila acted, as if she just woke up for the first time. Mark pushed on the alarm-button, to let the beeping stop. Hi beautiful, he tried to say as easy going as he could. Hmmm, good morning sweetie, Sheila moaned. She looked down at his body and took his manliness sensually in her hand. Such a good morning already huh? She teased him and looked up at his beautiful face. Oh Sheila please, we have to get dressed and have some.... he wanted to say breakfast, but when Sheila bended over and took his hard desire in her mouth, he thought he was going to lose his mind. My God woman, don't you ever have enough! He moaned out loud, but Sheila didn't answer in words. Mark closed his eyes and decided to enjoy this to the fullest. He couldn't believe, that she wanted to do this for him after the night they just had. He opened his eyes and looked down at her. Her long hair touched the skin of his thighs, his legs and his belly and he loved seeing her like this. She looked at him from under her eyelashes while pleasing him, when she suddenly stopped and jumped up, to sit down on her knees above his belly. She looked down at him with a teasing and defiant look in her eyes. Yes or no? Mark shook his head smiling and asked with a raspy voice, what do you think? He grabbed her at her waist and before she knew it, she felt him glide inside of her. It didn't take long this time, because of the way she had teased him before, which turned her on too. But, she didn't care this time. It was quick and hard, but their climax wasn't any less pleasant because of it.

Sheila lay on his chest panting, feeling more happy than she ever did in her life. I am ready for work now, she joked. You too? I really hate you now, you know that, Mark smiled. And the worst thing of it is, if I am not performing well today, you and the director are the ones, who tell me to try my best. But you got the best of me already, three times, he moaned as if he suffered because of it. Sheila laughed out loud. I feel really sorry for you, but you could have said no. No to what? Mark asked. Sheila bit softly in his nipple and immediately felt his body responding. To this, she smiled with a naughty look on her face. Mark suddenly looked at her, with a very serious expression on his face. He pulled her up, so her face was on the same level now as his. He gently put his hand against her cheek and slowly kissed her lips. Sheila was confused. Why was he so serious all of a sudden? She saw emotion in his eyes. She touched his face and looked worried. Mark what's wrong? Tears fell down his face,when he kissed her again. She tasted the saltiness of his tears. Sweetheart? She asked again, while she hold his face between her hands. I never said this to anyone, but I love you so extremely much, he whispered. I maybe have said it, once or twice, he corrected himself, but I never felt it. I feel you, he took her hand in his and put it on his heart. I feel you here and tears fell down from both their faces. I feel you too, she whispered and I love you more than I have ever done before. But it scares me too Mark. You know, that I have always blocked that part. In fear of getting hurt again. So if you ever get tired of me, please tell me before I find out in the glossy magazines. Mark smiled at her. Don't you worry about that. I would never do that....

Mark decided to take a shower at the hotel. "Just in case, you get other ideas" he had laughed. He had hit her on her butt and told her to shower now too, because otherwise they definitely wouldn't have any time left for breakfast. With a big smile on his face he went back to the hotel, where the first crew members were on their way to the breakfast room. Mark! He heard yelling. It was Nicky. When Nicky walked up to him, he immediately started laughing. What the hell did she do to you, buddy? Mark knew Nicky was one of his best friends, but this was something, he didn't even believe. So Nicky wouldn't either. Well? Nicky asked again while he walked up to the elevator with him. You really don't want to know Nicko my man, he answered with a big smile on his face and hit him on the back. Wow! That good huh? Nicky smiled but then silenced. Mark saw him thinking. What? No nothing, Nicky answered and shook his head. It's just....well you know...Mark looked at him. No! I don't know. He got a bit irritated, because Nicky didn't wanted to tell him, what was wrong with Sheila. Well, Nicky continued, you only had girlfriends for a couple of months and then it's over. Having an affair with our Sheila, would cost her, her job when you end up with her. Mark was flabbergasted by what his friend just said. Insulted at first too. Why should I want to end up, something so great, he said firmly when he pushed the button of the elevator to go upstairs . But he felt confused too. Yes, this was better than he had ever experienced before, but what if something happened and their relationship should end? Louis would never fire him, but he might let go of Sheila. He never thought about that. Nicky saw the confusion on Mark's face. I am sorry buddy, but did you never thought of that? Mark rubbed with his two hands over his face. He was tired and now he got upset by this thought too. Oh Nicko, you have no idea what a night...he silenced shortly and grinned, what a morning, I just got. He stared at the floor and shook his head. I never had the feeling she is giving me now. This was "making love" for real and she was right there under my nose for eight years. Eighth years long I knew I could rely on her, but never thought about this. I always called her, even in the middle of the night, when one of my relationships was over again. Nicky watched his friend talking and suddenly realized that this wasn't a whim for Mark, a one night stand, but this was for real. Mark had really fallen in love with Sheila and that worried him even more....