The night {Colifer fan fiction}

Chapter 30: Just a dream

"...I'm sorry Jennifer, I can't be with you anymore." he said and turned around.

He sounded determined. He then opened the door and left, without even looking back at me one last time.

The minute he closed the door I kneeled down and burst out crying uncontrollably. I couldn't believe we were going through this again.

My head was pounding and the next second I was in a dark room lying on a bed, someone gripping my arm. I was really confused for a moment but then Colin's voice made me realize what was actually happening.

"Hey, Jennifer, it's ok. It was only a nightmare. I'm here with you, everything's gonna be alright." he said softly and I curled up in his arms.

He got hold of the back of my head with one hand and started to slowly stroke my hair. I pressed my forehead to his chest and wrapped my arms around him, holding him as closer as possible.

It was just a dream.

A dream that reflected my biggest fear. Since we got back together, I've been nothing but happy. I was practically glowing.

But yesterday all my fears and insecurities came back to haunt me, thanks to the meeting I had with Adam.

What if he left me again? What if he went back to Helen? Oh god, Helen. She'd been nothing but friendly to me all those years and I hurt her in the worst way imaginable. Maybe I was not worthy of him. Maybe I deserved it if he left me again.

"Feeling better?" he asked, breaking me out of my terrible thoughts.

"Yes." I whispered.

Lie.

I was a bit calmer now, but the pain this dream caused was still lurking in my mind. It was so vivid and realistic that I couldn't just shake it off.

I pulled away from him and turned the night lamp on. He instinctively rubbed his eyes, struggling to adjust to the sudden brightness. I was wide awake so it didn't bother me that much.

When he opened his eyes I was already looking at him. I suppose he saw the worry in my face, because he spoke before I did.

"What's wrong?" he asked concerned.

"Can I ask you something serious?" I bit my lip.

"Yes, tell me." he encouraged me.

I took a deep and well needed breath, giving me the time to gather the courage to speak.

"Why did you left her? Why did you choose me over her?" I blurted out the questions.

He didn't answer right away, which didn't help my growing nervousness.

"Why are you asking that at..." he looked over to the alarm clock on the nightstand "...3am?" he questioned.

"I just...need to know." I claimed, not revealing the actual reason behind it.

He sighed and ran his hand down his face before looking back at me again.

"It felt like the right thing to do." he replied.

This answer wasn't relieving either.

"Does this mean that one day you could feel that leaving me would be the right thing to do too?" I asked reluctantly.

"Jen, what's gotten into you?" he dodged my question.

He was certainly not helping at that moment.

"Answer me!" I demanded, raising my voice a little more than I intended to and instantly regretted it.

"What's wrong with you? I won't leave you, I promise." he assured me.

I looked at him with a hint of guilt and suspicion on my face.

"You weren't supposed to leave her either. You made a vow..." I started but I was cut off by his lips crushing on mine.

When he pulled away, he smiled widely.

"It's not the same, because you are not her. I've never felt this way before in my life. I thought I knew what love was, but you proved me wrong. I'm not gonna leave you, so stop worrying about that. I'm afraid you'll be stuck with me for a long time." he confessed.

The smile didn't leave his face and I must admit it was quite contagious. Without realizing it, I was smiling too.

I caressed his cheek and closed my eyes.

"I'm sorry for overreacting." I apologized.

"It's ok. Now, can we go back to sleep?" he asked and I nodded.

"One last thing." I added.

"What now?" he asked.

I pulled his face closer and kissed him briefly, but passionately.

"I love you too." I whispered upon his lips.

He growled and grabbed my face, bringing me back to his lips.

"Bloody siren, how can I sleep now?" he mumbled when he pulled away.

I couldn't help but giggle. It was incredible how easily he could be turned on.

"Goodnight." I said and turned off the light.

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The next day I drove us to set. We were filming on Main Street and then we would be taken to the stages where we would film in Emma and Hook's house.

I was sitting alone eating when I spotted Colin talking to Adam. I was too far to hear anything but he looked excited. He then came rushing towards where I was.

"Jen, come on, we have to go practice the scene." he said out of breath, as he was practically running to come here.

I looked up at him confused.

"But we are not supposed to go just yet and we have already practiced this one." I reminded him.

"Yes I know, but Adam informed me that the plan has changed and we need to go now." he explained.

It made sense, but I still couldn't understand why he was so excited. I stood up and followed him to the stages.

When we entered the house we took our places in front of the staircase.

"It's just, what I have to say isn't exactly easy and I'm not entirely sure how you're gonna react." he said, as his script instructed him to.

"Well maybe I could make it easier and tell you that my answer would be yes." I said my lines.

"Yes? I..What was the question?" he asked worried, perfectly in character.

"I might have found something in your seachest that I shouldn't have." I admitted and pretended to be showing him a ring.

"Are you mad at me?" I asked softly.

"No, how could I ever be mad at you?"

I looked deep into his eyes.

"It's just you and me. No walls. No secrets." I said, containing the tears that were threatening to fall down.

I took his hand and pretended to place the invisible engagement ring in his palm.

"I know I might have ruined the surprise, but what do you say?" I asked, closing his fingers.

He slowly went down on one knee, not breaking eye contact with me even for a second. I just then realized he wasn't wearing the hook, but that wasn't something unusual during rehearsals. It's not like he needed it for that particular scene anyway.

When he pulled a small red velvet box out of his jacket's pocket, I knew it was no longer Emma and Hook.

A/N: Well, what do you think will happen?😏