The night {Colifer fan fiction}

Chapter 15: The morning after

Jen's POV

The next morning I woke up before he did. The smile on my face was bigger than ever before. I stayed in bed next to him just observing him and smiling even more than seconds ago.

I was savouring every moment I got to spend by his side. Last night was beyond perfect, but then the sun came up and reality set in. A future for us was just not in the cards.

We could never be a couple. We could never have a normal relationship, so this day was all we had left.

"You know, watching someone when they're sleeping is quite creepy." he said with his eyes still closed, breaking me out of my depressing thoughts.

I giggled and he opened his eyes. He turned on his side, supporting his head on his elbow and smiled widely at me.

"What's that face?" I asked in a teasing manner, trying to hide my sadness.

"What face?" he replied with another question and did his famous 'smolder' face.

"That face." I said pointing at him playfully.

He caressed my cheek gently with one hand.

"I'm just happy." he replied and pecked me on the lips.

We spent the whole morning in bed making out and just being happy. He got up and went to make breakfast, despite it being noon already.

I went downstairs and stuck my head inside the kitchen. He had his back turned to the door and couldn't see me, nor had he heard me coming down. I sneaked inside and hugged him from behind, startling him a bit.

"Mmmmm it smells delicious. What are you making?" I asked without letting go of him and pressing my head on his back.

"Tacos." he replied laughing.

"You're hilarious." I said rolling my eyes.

"I'm making pancakes, love. But if you'd prefer some tacos..." he said and started tickling me.

I begged him to stop but he didn't listen, until I was trapped in a corner, unable to escape him. He leaned in to kiss me, but to his surprise I gently pushed him away.

"Wha...?" he obviously didn't know how to react to that.

"I have to ask. Did you and her really got a divorce?" I asked.

"What? Yes. Jen, I left her in my apartment and spent the night with you." he answered.

"Did you think that after everything we all went through I would still be with her?" he asked.

"Well, considering our past, can you blame me for being uncertain?" I said smiling at him.

He took me in for a hug.

"So, now that we cleared that out, can I ask you something too?" he said.

"Yeah, go ahead." I suggested.

He let go of me, turned off the stove and we sat on the kitchen table.

"Given the recent events, are we, like, a thing now? Officially? I'm only asking because, you know, if we are, I want to go and shout it from the rooftops so everyone knows." he said.

It made me giggle.

"Can we not rush things and just enjoy the time we get to spend together?" I asked.

Here we go.

"I don't mean to rush anything, but I really need to know we are on the same page here." he explained.

He was right. In order for what we had to work out, we needed to want the same things. In our case, even if we did want the same things, being together was far from easy.

We definitely needed to talk about a whole lot of things.

"So, tell me what's going through your mind." he said.

He had noticed I was troubled.

"Look, it's all too much. I hope you understand that we can't go from not talking to each other for a month to sleeping together and being a couple in a day. Being in the spotlight, we're going to have to face many difficulties. Plus, I am still insecure about some things and I still have trust issues." I explained.

He knew all to well, given he was the one breaking my trust to begin with.

"So, you suggest we take it slow?" he asked.

I could see it in his eyes that he wanted way more than that. I didn't want to hurt him.

"I suggest we have fun." I replied, giving him a not-so-innocent look, in an attempt to lighten the mood.

"Wait, does that mean that we can see other people too? You can't do that." he said in a quite aggressive manner.

Wow, where did that come from?

"Oh, and why is that? Let me remind you that you were the one to push me away in the first place. Why are you so mad at me for even implying that? " I said, crossing my arms, slightly annoyed by his sudden burst of anger.

How did he even think I would suggest anything like that?

"I'm mad at you because I love you!" he shouted.

HE WHAT???

"Well, maybe that's the problem." I said calmly, almost whispering.

These last words broke him completely. I don't really know why I said that. He caught me by surprise and I had to react somehow.

And of course I had to make the worst choice of words and hurt him.

"How could you say something like that? Are you so insensitive now? This isn't the woman I fell in love with. That woman was kind and sympathetic. This one is cruel and manipulative." he said and lowered his eyes.

"I'm sorry, ok? I didn't mean it like that. But you can't act this way. I didn't say we would see other people. I simply asked for some more time to adjust to this." I said avoiding to look at him.

A/N: Ok guys, I'm sorry but in order to have the story going, I can't let them be together just yet🙈 I will try to update soon, but I don't make any promises, because uni is getting harder every day, meaning I won't have much free time.