The night {Colifer fan fiction}

Chapter 33: The twilight song?

Jen's POV

Have you ever found yourself trapped between sleep and wakefulness? It's the state in which your consciousness is walking in equilibrium on the taut and invisible wire which separates sleeping from waking. At least that's how Salvador Dali described hypnagogia in one of his books.

That's exactly what dating Colin O'Donoghue feels like. I constantly feel like I'm dreaming, while at the same time I'm pretty sure I'm fully awake. Never have I believed we would actually end up together one day. Have I hoped we would? Guilty. Have I wished we would? More times than I could possibly count. I simply believed it would always be just that; an unfulfilled wish. But once in a lifetime, even the wishes that look hardly impossible come true.

My subconscious used to reflect my biggest desire through dreams. I used to constantly dream about having someone by my side.

My dreams would take me to a "world" where I, for once didn't have to be alone. Looking back, that was the one thing I missed the most; someone to be by my side.

But not now. Now, for the first time in forever, I actually had someone to wake up to. Someone who actually cared.

*March 22nd*

I woke up in a sudden. I had a really vivid dream, but unfortunately I couldn't recall any of it at that moment. The room was still dark and it was dead quiet outside. I slowly turned around to look at him. He was so peaceful when he was sleeping, his chest rising and falling as he breathed in and out. I smiled to myself at the sight before me and got up.

The clock on the nightstand read 4am. I skimmed across the wooden floor, carefully opened the door, trying to make as little noise as possible and walked out of the guest room.

I flinched at the sudden light coming through the living room window. It being the end of March meant that it should still have been dark outside at that hour, but the full moon was shining bright up in the starry sky, illuminating the whole room.

I rubbed the sleep off of my eyes and made my way to the kitchen. After a futile attempt to find anything to eat, I made some coffee and went back to the living room. I immediately spotted Ava sleeping on her favorite armchair. The moment I sat down next to her, she woke up and started barking playfully.

"Hey, little one, mommy is here, calm down. We wouldn't want to wake daddy up now, would we?" I said, faking a baby voice.

Daddy? Really? I mentally slapped myself and thanked every god there was for the fact that he was still asleep in the guest room. I was lucky to have avoided what could have been the most awkward moment of the century.

Ava hopped on my lap suggesting she wanted some belly rubs. I set my mug on the coffee table and happily gave her some. A minute later she hopped off and started running across the room. She hid under the piano (or at least she thought she was hidden) and started barking eagerly, like she was calling for me to go and find her. I stood up and lumbered over to her hiding spot.

Without thinking too much of it, I sat on the small bench that was placed in front of the piano and brushed my fingers across the keys. Somehow, my still-sleepy self found it a good idea. Ava instantly came to curl up on my feet. I hesitantly started playing a song, not too loud in order not to wake Colin up. Then I got kind of carried away and one song turned to two, two songs turned to five and so on.

"Seriously? The Twilight song?" I heard a familiar sleepy voice coming from behind me.

I instinctively smiled and turned around. He was leaning on the doorframe.