Jonaxx Secret Files

Her Jonaxx Boy

Real Life Jonaxx Boy/Girl
Experience
Her jonaxx boy

"I was in high school, my first year actually when I met you. Your hair had a nice clean cut like Riguel. It looks so god damn perfect on you, and you have a body that any jonaxx boy would have for a high school student, you're also one of the varsity players in our school.

I was the first one who preyed on you. We were in the same grade but different sections. I would always pass by your room and take a glimpse of you. I even took pictures that until now, are in my phone. I always thought that you were a star that I can never touch. My feelings lasted, for almost a year. I thought it was clear for you and me that we were an item, but I thought wrong. I realized that you were in love with someone else just like how Jayden used to love Trisha. And I left you without any words being said, like it would mean anything to you, just how Entice left Knoxx. A year passed and we meet again but by that time we were classmates. I didnt miss you, I miss the feeling being with you. I loved you actually and it wasn't easy moving on. But I did, step by step.

Then you came back into my life like nothing happened. You were talking to me, pulling jokes on me, making me laugh. I guess you were never really serious about us back then. We became friends I let that happen because I know there's no chance of you and me getting back together. I dont have feelings for you anymore, and you dont too as always.

It was on the month of January when my friends stopped talking to me. They left me like how Zari's friends left her. I was so miserable by that time but you were there for me as a friend. You were my shoulder to cry on.

Weeks after that you started to not talk to me too. I was so confused on whats happening. I felt so alone. And then one day me and my real friend were talking and she said that you liked me. I didn't want to believe her but she told me that your bestfriend told her so. Thats the reason why my friends got mad at me. One of them liked him. But he didnt care. He came running to from the crowd. He told me everything and why he stopped talking to me, he was trying to stop his feelings but he couldnt. I pushed you away and said that i didnt care. I shouted at you and said that i hate you. That playboys like you arent meant for me and other words that I didnt mean to say just to make you stop loving me. I thought if I pushed you away my friends would come back, but they didnt. With every hurtful word I told you it hurted me 10 times harder. I cant see you like that. I walked away and never looked back. My feelings that were kept within me surfaced again and fuck it for that. I guess my feelings never disappeared it was just burried deep in me. But despite that I didn't tell you. I dont want to waste my tears on you again. Ive learned my lesson, I dont want to risk my heart this time. Im done.

Despite all these my heart remains trapped within you. I still love you and that will never change. You are forever mine and I will be forever yours. But let me keep that in my mind. It will remain there until I see you happy with someone else.

P.S. To the girl who he will love. Take care of him. He deserves the best. He will love you even if it harms everyone."

-Dette