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He's my Riego

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He's my Achilles Riego

"I didn't even say bye to him. I just left. He was never mine but I was always his.

I was studying in Australia when I met him. He's half-Australian and half-Filipino pero one look at him, aakalahin na Filipino talaga siya, e. He has tanned skin but his nose is really defined at yung yung mga mata niya they're kind of a unique hazel color that would have hint of green when there's sunlight.. just like Achilles (& Sibal's) eyes.

It's been almost two years since I last saw him. We don't communicate anymore even though we're friends on Facebook... He's ""active"", I'm ""active"" but we don't chat each other. Every time I get news from my friends about him, para lang akong tangang naka-ngiti. Actually, even right now while I'm writing this... I'm like an idiot smiling about the thought of him... even though he will never do the same.

I'm kind of like Marem in a way kasi we had a kind of mutual understanding at some point since our 7th grade but when we weren't on the same classes anymore in our 9th grade, di na kami gaano nag-uusap palagi katulad ng dati.

Tapos, nalaman ko bigla na may girlfriend na pala siya. I guess I was just an assumera that he also had the same feelings for me.

I was bitter. Really bitter kaya I would just ignore him whenever he would try to greet me noong magkaklase kami uli ng Grade 10. So ayun, we really drifted away at di na talaga nag-uusap. Akala pa ng iba ay talagang hate ko na talaga siya...

Then, the unexpected came bago kami mag-start ng Grade 11 classes. Uuwi daw kami biglaan ni Mama sa Philippines. Sa isang festival, nakita ko for the last time yung mga kaibigan ko sa Australia... I was waiting all night to see him appear but he never did.

I didn't say bye to him.
I didn't get to say my real feelings for him.

Siya parin hanggang ngayon. I tried to forget him but temporary attractions cannot compete for the agape [unconditional] love I feel for him.

I don't know if we will go back to Australia ever again but I want to go there myself kapag nakapagtapos na ako ng course ko then I'd take my masters there. I will find him again. I want to see him... want to talk to him again... I want to be close to him again.

I'll do whatever it takes to make him mine. I'll make myself better... I want to be someone who's worthy to have someone like him. I'll study more and take care of my self more. I will reach out to him whatever it takes but if he already has someone else, well....

Unlike Marem, I'll try not to be bitter. Instead, I just want to be close beside him.

He's my Achilles Riego. I'm miles away from him. He might find someone else but I will continue loving him even though he's not aware of that fact... even though he thinks I don't care about him. "

-A yearning Marem