i'll always be around

group chat, please read

hi guys. it's me, your bro, chlo.

i don't know if you realize this, but i've been pretty distant recently.

it's because i've been struggling with feeling unwanted.

i can't tell if you guys really don't want me there, but i really, really, really feel like you don't.

i don't want to expose, but other people have felt this way as well. i just feel like you guys don't want me in the group chat, and that you dislike me.

the few things that have lead me to feel this way are...
a) when i say something, i am ignored, and others just continue whatever they were talking about previously.
b) when i am not ignored, the response is most always a sassy remark that makes me feel like crap.
c) my insecurities. they've been really bad recently. i just haven't been feeling like myself.
d) my disconnection with the group and my ability to never carry on a conversation.

i don't want to lose you guys, but i don't feel welcome//wanted.

i was reading through my old updates (i was re-titling everything) and i remembered how we really were a family. we felt like we all lived in the same house together, like we were all sO CLOSE.

but now, i feel like a cousin that was 64 times removed.

i have a feeling all of you will comment, "oh noooo, we love you, we want you to stay !!"

but i don't know if i can believe it at this point.

i just, i don't know, feel like crap.

this whole situation is making me a lot more upset and emotional.

we claim that we're wholesome, but as the definition of wholesome reads:

"wholesome-
conducive to or promoting moral well-being.
"good wholesome fun"
synonyms: good, ethical, moral, clean, virtuous, pure, innocent, chaste"

i don't feel like that's what's going on.

tell me why this is happening.

i'm going to tag all of you, but just so i know you'll see this. (even those of you that recently left.)

-eloquent
MELODRAMA-
dreamerunderskies
-exist
CRAZYFAST-
pitifulphan
@whateverkaley'suserisoops
goodnightsmoon
-themoonsong