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high school rant

i'm starting to get really anxious about starting high school. i got into *three* advanced courses, and i'm so afraid to not do well in them.

high school matters, you know ?

all of the credits, all of the tests, your gpa, i'm just so afraid of failing. if you don't do well in high school, you can't get into college. if you don't go to college, you can't get a good job to support yourself and *possibly* a family.

it's insane that at fourteen i'm worrying about not being able to support a family in like fourteen more years into the future.

i'm scared.

i'm scared of this academic standard that i have to keep up in order to make a good life for myself. it's kind of terrifying, the fact that if you fail a test it could mess up your entire life.

of course, this is probably slightly overdramatic.

but still, it's kind of realistic ??

for those of you that are in high school or have already been through it, how is it ?? is it really something for me to worry about ?

should i drop one or two of the advanced courses that i'm in ?

i don't know.

i'm just really anxious about it, and it's still a month away ??

some helpful advice about how to survive and what i should/shouldn't worry about would be comforting.

thank you. i appreciate you.

(i might add on to this later, i'm kind of trying to collect my thoughts and idk if i covered everything in this.)