Kabanata 23
Only
"No."
Napatayo si Gean sa sagot ko. Tinapunan niya ako ng masamang tingin.
Ayoko. Ayokong gawin ang sinabi ni Gean. Sa aking nalaman pa lang sa kanya ngayon, I feel used.
Ginamit niya ako para lamang maging mabuti siya sa ibang tao? kay Dukan to be exact? What the hell is that!
Alam ko naman ang pinasukan ko. Alam ko. But what I know, hindi iyong ganito.
"I'm sorry. I can't help you."
"What?" napasigaw si Gean sa aking harapan. "How dare you take down my request!"
You have to speak your mind Des. You have to speak.
"Gean, I am not against you or your rule. I respect you... a lot! Alam mo iyan. And I am scared of you that all I want here is your damn approval para maging maginhawa ang buhay. But please, don't make decisions when you are angry. Hindi solusyon ang pagiging kami Drame para lamang matabunan ang mga maling nagawa niya. I am not the perfect ingredient you will need..."
"Hindi mo alam des. Dukan is so mad sa kabit ng kanyang Papa. Dahil sa kabit ng kanyang Papa, nagkasiraan ang pamilya nila. I even heard him once na oras lang na malaman niya kung sino ang kabit ng kanyang ama, dadamayin niya pati ang pamilya nito. And that is us!"
"But do you think including me in this situation will solve everything? I don't think so, Gean! I don't think so. Oras na pumayag ako sa gusto mo, magiging parte na ako ng kaguluhan. And I don't want that. I never wanted that. All I wanted is to live my life peacefully, with no issues at all. Pero ito ako, araw-araw, may nagagalit sa akin sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. I accepted all of them dahil ito ang pinasok ko, ito ang ginusto. But this? Going in between the life and emotions of other people when in fact I am not part of the business? This is too much. Paano na lang kung malaman ni Dukan ang lahat? He will think na pinagkaisahan natin siya. Mas lalong magagalit siya sa atin. Sa iyo. Kay Drame. At lalong-lalo na sa buong pamilya niyo. Mas magagalit siya."
Natahimik si Gean sa mga rason ko. It's true. I am just thinking of the possibilities. Walang impossible. And knowing the kind of person Dukan is, kung sasali ako sa gulo, mas lalong lalala ang lahat. I just don't think this is the solution.
"Hindi kayo dapat nadadamay sa away ng magulang niyo. Normal ang magalit, dahil sino ba naman ang may gusto nun, diba? But do you really have to blame yourself? To the point na mas naaapektuhan pa kayo kaysa sa mga magulang niyo na siyang dapat namomroblema?" pagpapatuloy ko.
Alam ko kung anong klaseng tao si Dukan. At alam ko ding marunong siyang umintindi at magpatawad. It's just that he is not showy of that stuff or ready to open himself to others. Pero oras na makuha mo ang loob niya, mabait siya sa iyo. He was to me.
"We don't mean to hide things, Gean. We just have to prove him that we are not like our parents, your parents. That we are true at hindi dapat sarili natin ang sinisisi. Your brother fell in love with Dais. Which is very unfortunate. Pero andiyan na iyan e. We can't force a monkey to make strawberry his favorite when banana is really what he loves most."
Napaupo ulit si Gean. Patuloy pa din sa pagpatak ang kanyang mga luha.
"I am also thinking about your brother, Drame, and Dais. Kung sakali mang gumulo ito dahil sa plano mo at sa pagpayag ko, silang dalawa ang maaapektuhan. We will destroy their genuine love and worst, we could turn them into monsters."
Humagulhol na ng iyak si Gean sa aking tabi. Wala akong choice kundi ang daluhan siya. I let her cry on my shoulders.
"Just prove Dukan that you are much better than your parents. He will surely give you all the benefits of doubt. Hindi ganoon kasama si Dukan sa iniisip mo."
BINABASA MO ANG
Bitch Code 1.0 (MUST Series #3)
RomancePeople are so good at judging and looking for mistakes and we look for physical beauty and titles. Today, money means beauty, and if there is beauty, there will be friends. But will you live happily with that? Will you?