Forever & Always

Chapter 32: Drama, Dramas & Dean.

Just so much Drama at once.

They were in the hospital!

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Dean's grip on my hand tightened and my heart started pumping faster. Everyone gave the doctor an uneasy look and waited for him to continue.

"Ellie's lupus unfortunately managed to strike the lungs and it developed a small tumor."

My breath hitched in my throat and everyone in the room gasped. I froze.

No, it can't be true.

I can't have cancer.

"However, we still don't know if it's cancerous or not. If it is not cancerous, hopefully, we will need to do a surgery to get the tumor out and that will be it. However, if it turned out to be cancerous, not only will she undergo surgeries but she will need to take 6 week round of radiation and 3 months of Chemo and as you may know about the chemo, it will result in fatigues, hair loss, nauseousness and sometimes she won't be able to get out of bed and leave to school but the cancer will go. I am sure of that."

"How do you know if it's cancerous or not?" Mom asked with tears swimming in her eyes "We're currently still testing her blood samples and all we can do is wait for them to come out. I will update you once I get the results and hopefully it's good news."

And then he left.

"Oh god" Carrie whispered bringing her hand up to her mouth as she slowly sat down on the couch trying to comprehend the information that was given to her. Mom on the other hand started crying. Hope and her mom just stood there awkwardly with shocked faces and didn't say anything.

Dean was silent.

"You can't tell Jeremy" I yelled at mom "If it's cancerous or not mom, you can't tell him. Do you understand me?!" I yelled even louder, tears streaming down my face "Just don't tell him"

I knew Jeremy had nothing to do with this but I was in too much shock to say anything else, and that was the first thing that came out of my mouth.

I put my head back down on the pillow and cried silently. Dean squeezed my hands every now and then but he was in trance, he wasn't talking to anyone. And all I could do was sit here and pray that whatever that's growing inside of me isn't cancerous.

A few crucial hours passed by as we waited for the results and no one uttered one word. Thankfully, Hope and her annoying mother left a while back and said they'll come and check up on us later, yeah like they actually care about me.

I think Dean was even more affected with this than I was, because he didn't speak a thing to me. I honestly didn't want anyone to talk to me, it was hard for all of us. It brought tears to my eyes to see my family surrounding me, they were all worried about me and I could have never been more thankful to have these amazing people by my side to support me through whatever I go through. I really do love them will all my heart.

"John left to get us food" Carrie said and Mom nodded resting her head against her palms with a heavy sigh. Greg stood behind her, rubbing her back up and down trying to calm her down. Carrie slumped against the other chair and tapped away on her phone.

I coughed suddenly and everyone looked at me concerned when I coughed again but I placed my hand immediately on my mouth and I felt something on my hand right after I let out another strangled cough. Tears blurred my eyes when I noticed more blood covering my hands. I hated it, I really hated being sick.

Dean immediately gave me tissues and I wiped my hands and my mouth when I heard mom start to sob quietly. I placed my head back on the pillow and closed my eyes hoping that this day would end.