A Crush On My Husband

51. A Crush On My Husband

ANASTASIA'S POV :

As i was climbing up the staircase to the apartment. My stomach began to flip imagining Drake at home all of sudden. Those thoughts in my head was driving me insane. It wasn't excitement. But panic, nervousness and cold feet. As much as those emotions were taking turns, i even had a feeling of not wanting to see him anymore. He just made me loose all my trust on him. The one man I've ever fallen in love has betrayed me. I thought i was the luckiest to find my guy in the very first try and now i realise that I'm not...And this thought makes me even sadder. I thought he loved me. But all this while, he was upto something behind my back. But why did he have to do that? He could have as well told me, that he doesn't like me and that he is still in love with his 'girlfriend'. Why did he have to make up a story that his 'ex-girlfriend' is dead and accepted to live with me? Maybe he didn't want to hurt his Grandfather,..may be that's why he played all along. But that doesn't mean that he has the right to play with my feelings. The deeper i thought, anger against Drake turned more into tears of sorrow.

But, as i approached the apartment, i heard noises of football match. Is he watching the match as usual? It made me more anxious. The anxiety was literally eating me up from within. I couldn't it take any longer and so i ran straight to the door and unlocked it immediately. Once i opened the door and went inside the hall..

The room was empty.

The remote which i was holding onto a while ago before Issa came in was in the same place where i left it. Nothing had changed. Everything remained in its place the way i left it and went. Must have heard the noises from the neighbour's apartment.

As much as it disappointed me, i was relieved...

May be right now Drake is playing with Leo. Or may be he and Anabelle might be reading a bedtime story to Leo who might be sleeping in between them on his bed. It just made be smile but yet i was so sad. It was like one half of my heart was completely lost into depression, disappointment and anger while the other half of my heart was genuinely happy for Leo cause he needn't have to grow up suffering like i did. He will grow up in an atmosphere like a regular 6 year old boy who would grow up with his parents...

I went inside the bedroom and the very next thing i can remember was, i drifted off to sleep. I was really exhausted and it didn't take me a while to sleep at all.

JACK'S POV :

"Here, have some coffee buddy!! Look at you, you have dark circles under your eyes. You are so stressed lately.. " i passed him a mug of espresso.

Man, this guy's life is so screwed up! I wish he was back to how he was earlier.

He was so calm and composed during the working hours and now he looks so fucked up.

"Thanks..." he appreciated my effort of trying to make him feel good while his hands were still holding his head.

"So... " i asked while sipping my coffee.

He lifted his head up.

" What do you want me to say? Do you want me to be glad for you cause my life isn't yours? Or do you want me to give a descriptive explanation on How exactly my life is moving towards wheresoever my destiny is laying ?" He spoke so fast and hit his fist on the bench which kind of freaked me out.

"Well man, i just wanted to ask you,... how you're handling with everything, with the entire situation but looks like it's not going too well... " i placed my hands on his shoulder trying to calm him down.

"Right now. Like right now, my life is covered with whole lot of mud and dust. Its so stuck on me that i don't even know how to clean it up. They look like they are just going to leave stains all over me even if i try to clean it. It's all over. There is nothing good to talk about except that I'm happy to meet my son. Last night before i finished reading him a story, he asked me to not leave him ever again, again. He seemed so determined to be with me always. I love him and i love Ana too... I don't know what to do... Those thoughts didn't let me sleep the entire night. With Leo sleeping beside me. I kept looking at him and stroking his head. He resembled me so much. Arghh.. I have to cut my ties with Ana, if i wanted to be with Leo and if Anabelle knows i met Ana by any chance, then i have to forget Leo forever... " He said trying to dismiss our conversation which he seemed to dislike now.