Destiny

The Promise to not Breaking Up

Sya main2 anak rambut Mr Liam. Hidung dia yg tinggi, bibir dia yg merah. All is mine. Nyenyak btl dia tdr. Sya baring d dada Mr Liam. I feel warm in love. Rasa bersalah menerpa lg bila sya tuduh dia mcm2.

‘I am sorry syg.’ Sya kiss leher Mr Liam. Dia menggeliat sikit. I think he is having a sweet dream. I hope I am in there.

Sya bangun p mandi. Sya biar Mr Liam tdr. I saw he so tired. Sya blm tanya lagi apa yg buat dia tlampau panat sma kenapa dia mcm tu org gila pagi td. And of course clear explanation of his meeting with Emily. Sya yakin Emily laitu. Emily ja yg sya tau can be my ‘long lost twins’. 

Sya keluar smbl lap2 rmbt sya yg basah. Sdh sya pakai bju sdia dri bathroom. Ada kucing d bilik kan. Sya masuk smbl liduk2 Mr Liam d bilik. X sdh. Sdh bangun laitu.

‘Looking for me?’ Terkejut sya. Tgn dia d pinggang sya sdh. Btl2 mcm ular dia ni. Suka melingkar tiba2.
‘Isshh, terkejut sya tau..’ Sya tulak dia tp dia peluk sya balik.
‘U smell nice..’ Dia cium rmbt sya yg basah. Mimanglah baru mandi.
‘U pglah mandi.’ Sya tulak bdn dia lg. Bau masam hahaha Sya duduk d katil smbl lap2 rmbt sya.
‘Wait..’ No! Sya nmpk Mr Liam tunduk p ambil sesuatu dlm bakul sampah sya. Opppss!!! Matilah.  Sya katup2 gigi sdh. Take that Issabella!
‘Bella, why..’
‘Oh I think smlm kucing jiran I pecah masuk rumah. Mst dia terlanggar kotak tu then jth dlm bakul tu.’ Cepat2 sya rebut tu kotak dari tgn Mr Liam. Sya letak balik dkt meja solek sya.
‘Nah, towel..p mandi dlu.’ Sya tulak2 blkg dia p bathroom.
‘Bella, wait..’
‘U talk too much.’ Sya kiss lips dia. Itu ja cara mau kasi dia diam.
‘I want more..’ Dia kenyit mata. Good! Maksdunya dia lupa sdh pasal tu hadiah. Kalau dia tau sya buang, habislah sya kana dgr syarahan 24 jam tanpa henti. Nasib tu tong sampah sya blm penuh sampah. Ada pn sikit, tissue ja.
‘Not now..take a shower first.’ Sya tulak balik dia dlm bathroom. Terus sya tulung tutup tu pintu lg.

Sementara tunggu Iam mandi. Sya p buat jus carrot. Sya pasang tv then sya duduk d sofa. Sya cek2 fon sya, ada watsap dari Don. Xsmpt sya baca, sya nmpk Iam p dkt sya sdh. Terus sya letak d siring tu fon sya. He just wear short pants, no shirt. Gulp! Skit sya tersedak tu jus carrot sya hahaha Tu tuala kici masih d kepla dia. Dia senyum2 tingu sya.

‘Kenapa? Bella tergoda..’ Ehem, malar juga sya yg tergoda. Mcm lama sdh sya x jd penggoda.
‘Mana ada.’ Sya letak tu jus sya d tepi.
‘Here..’ Dia tepuk2 tu sofa, suruh sya dkt sama dia. Apalagi ni? Tp sya duduk dkt dia ja. Dia kasi pusing bahu sya membelakng dia. Terus dia ambil tu tuala d kpla dia. Dia p lap2 rambut sya yg basah. My habit yg susah mau ubah, sya xsuka kasi kering rmbt. Sya biar kering sdri.
‘Why so malas.’ Mr Liam kibas2 hujung rmbt sya.
‘Becoz u r here.’ Pdahal dia ada ka x, sama ja tu gaya sya. Teknik mau ambil hati.
‘Manja.’ Dia bilang terus dia kasi surugau rambut sya. Silaka! 
‘Only with u.’ Sya baring sdh d riba dia. Mr Liam p cuit2 hidung sya.
‘Awas! If u do it to Don or other guy.’ Warning kaitu. He still jelous. So do I, jelous with Emily.
‘Deal. U also don’t do it with Emily or any women.’ Tus dia ketawa.
‘Bella, I swear it wont happened.’ Dia angkat tgn.
‘Don’t swear, just don’t do it.’ Sya kasi turun tgn dia. Sya xsuka dgr org swear2. Sounds scary!

Speaking of Emily, I think this is the right time to ask him about last night incident. I am ready. I also will honest about Don. Lambat laun pn kmi perlu juga buka buku kami yg lepas. Sya bangun. Sya duduk sblh dia. Sya letak tu tuala d tepi.

‘Iam, about last night. Sorry. Sya xniat lain. I only return my favour to Don. And…’ Sya berhenti. Sya buat intro ja. Kasi umpan dlu jd kmi dua2 pn lbh open mau bercakap pasal hal tu tnpa dpengaruhi oleh emosi.
‘I know, I try to understand. I know we have same past. Don is ur past and mine is Emily. But Bella..’ Dia pn stop kijap. Dia raih tgn sya dlm genggaman dia. Sya tingu dia.
‘What?’ Sya bilang. Xsabar sya mau tau his next words.
‘Please, trust me. Sya pn xtau juga Emily balik Malaysia. She called, he want to meet. About Owen..’ Dia tarik nafas lg. Sya tunggu ja. So she is really Emily, my instinct is right! Jd yg sya nmpk d mall juga pasti dia. The beg shud be for Owen!

Tp sya xmau mencelah terlalu awal. I need to listen, listen and listen ja explanation Mr Liam. Lari atau marah bukan penyelesaian yg terbaik, kalau smlm sya bgni kan ok. Xpyh bazir air mata sya berbaldi2 bilang Don. Owen? Takkan dia mau ambil Owen? Dia mau jilat balik ludah yg dia buangkah?

‘Dia ckp dia pun mau hak penjagaan Owen. Kalau sya xjumpa discuss dgn dia, dia mau bwa kes ni d mahkamah. I malas mau turun naik mahkamah, bnyk urusan. I know, she doing mistake in the past. But no matter wat she still Owen’s mother.’ Sya usap2 tgn dia. Dalam hal ni sya xrasa sya patut campur tgn. Of course sya sygkn Owen, tp Emily lbh berhak. Siapalah sya ni mau menghalang Emily berjumpa sama Owen. They still mother and son. Sya tau Emily pilih jn itu, tp xsggp juga sya kasi putus ikatan seorang ibu dan anak. As long as she is not going to take Iam away. But I have a bad instinct about that.

‘I am so sorry for doubted ur feeling towards me. I hope everything going well.’ Sya kasi lentok kepla sya d bahu Mr Liam. Mr Liam sempat kiss kepala sya. Walaupun sakit hati sya ingat balik gaya c Emily tp sya mau pkr positif. Mana sdh keyakinan kau Issabella?
‘Is ok Bella. I am sorry too, I shud tell u earlier. I was thinking to tell u after the meeting actually. Kalau org lain pn d tmpt u, pasti akn buat bnda yg sama. I hope you understand my situation tat time. But hati perempuan ni lain skit..’ Dia p cubit pp sya.
‘Mana ada. Apa yg lain?’ Sya tepis tgn dia.
‘So do u have a great time with Don?’ Mcm menyindir ja. Geram terus sya.
‘Isshhh! Xlah..’ Sya p duduk jauh dri Mr Liam sdh. Merajuk.
‘You know wat Bella, I slept in the car. Wait for u to calm down. Sya tau kalau sya naik rumah u smlm, I am sure u wont care about me. That’s why..’
‘That’s why u mcm org yg hilang arah? Muka xterurus bgtu?’ Terus sya potong cpt2 ckp dia. Muka dia yg surugau limpas d fkrn sya sesaat.
‘Yes. Sya btl2 risau kalau2 u really throw me away.’ Punya budu btl sya rasa. We r feeling the same things.
‘Sorry!’ Terus sya peluk dia lagi. I am so touched.
‘Promise me one thing.’ Arrggh! Sya plg xsuka ni janji2.
‘Apaaa?’ sya tingu muka dia. Now I am sitting on his lap already. Mcm Mr Liam dukung putri tua ja. Amboi Issabella!
‘To not break up when we hurt but stick together even we hurt each other. Tu ja yg I want u to remember..’ Terkesima sya dgr kata2 Mr Liam. Beginikah kalau org matang yg bercinta?  And me? A little bit childish..

‘Trust me Bella. We already gone this far..’ Kami betatap mata, jauh ke dlm sanubari.
‘I will.’ Sya paut lg leher Mr Liam.
‘That’s my love.’ Dia kiss dahi sya. The feeling is different when Don kiss my forehead last night. I know, because the one I love is nobody but Iam.

Grown up Issabella! There is so much more awaiting u ahead.