Destiny

The little boy, Owen!

Tmbh2 sya bingung tingu Owen nangis. tp dlm msa yg sama bdn sya mcm lumpuh, xdpt bergerak.kaku ja sya...mcm sya rsa blank terus kpla sya, mcm yg jwp exam berabis mo ingt fakta tp xbuli jga..just imagine, u r single and out of sdnly a baby called u mum while cried out loud? terpinga ka x..thats how I feel. I dont know their story but it must be something- I dont know!

I hope it nothing to do with me.sya xperasan, pipi sya panas. Gosh! sya terikut nangis. capat2 sya lap air mata sya. tiba2 sya rasa mcm bru ja trsdr dri tdr yg pnjg, mcm tu sleeping beauty...

'Mum! I want mum!' sya dgr sdh balik jeritan Owen. I back to reality..Owen meronta2 mo minta lepas. Nani jd kelam kabut sdh...

'Sini..mari sya dukung dia.' finally I can take one step closer to Owen. biarpun sya masih bingung kenapa Owen nangis2 smbl teriak pggl sya mum but now, I only have one intention, to calm him down..

kasian sya tingu dia bgtu, my sense back..I dont k anymore of how I feel.
'Kenapa ni?!' Mr Liam keluar dri bilik tergesa2. muka dia sugul nmpk Owen bgtu. belum sempat sya dukung Owen sdh dia ambl dri Nani.

'I..' tu ja Nani dpt ckp, dia pn ikut bingung. dia garu2 kpla. sya signal mata jgn kasitau Mr Liam c Owen teriak2 pggl sya mum. Mr Liam dukung Owen sdh, dia usap2 belkg c Owen kasi calm down dia. tp mcm makin menjadi2 pla Owen meragam.

'Why son? what do u want, please stop crying..' dia tepuk2 belakang Owen. Tp Owen meronta lg..

'Alalala Owen baby..come here to jie jie.we go eat ur fav choc..' Jie jie? sya mau ketawa pn ada tingu gaya c Lonad. sya lupa, he can be both he and she! nmpknya cubaan Lonad gagal..

'Noooooo, I dont want...' dia tepis tgn c Lonad. kmu tau kan mcm mana kalo budak yg meronta dlm dukungan terutamanya yg ibu2...

'Whatever!' Lonad balik tmpt duduk dia.sempat dia mencebik...hahaha
'Is ok Lonad. il handle him...' Mr Liam masi rilek. nmpk sgt sifat kebapaan dia. Awww! it gonna make evry women heart meltdown. sya pn rasa kagum tingu kesbrn dia pujuk c Owen.

'Ermmmm ok boss..Owen xmau kwn jie jie Lonad today.' jd kmu mau muntah sdh? hahaha oh pleaselah Lonad!

'Ok2..stop cry. Dad will give anything u want. ok?' lembut ja Mr Liam pujuk Owen. dlm hti sya bgnikah kalo org kaya pujuk anak dorg? give everything they want just bcoz they have evrything? bikin gerigitan juga bah Owen ni xpndi makan pujuk..bingit sdh tlnga sya dgr dia nangis.
Lepas Mr Liam ckp bgtu, tangisan Owen reda sdh. tggl sisa2 lg, yg kejap ada kejap x..

'Promise?' Odoii ni budak pandai sdh mau janji2. clever boy! pndi dia perangkap dad dia..kita tgk bapa dia masuk perangkap ka x..

'Promise!' Mr Liam kiss pipi Owen, Owen kiss pipi dia balik..oh how sweet..sya tersenyum tingu gelagat romantik father n son..sama2 hensom lg.oppss!

Mr Liam letak c Owen d bwh sdh. dia duduk squating spya sma tggi sma Owen.

'Now, tell dad..wat Owen want?' Mr Liam lap2 pipi Owen yg basah dgn air mata.

'Mum, I want mum..' Owen gigit jari smbl dia kasi pusing2 bdn dia. so cute!
'Owen..' Mr Liam tingu c Owen, muka dia serius.

'I want mum. Dad alrdy promise..' pandai lg menagih janji ni budak ah..Owen tunduk tp dia tunjuk tmpt sya.

Gulp! sya telan air liur sikit2. biar btl budak ni..Lonad pn tingu sya mcm mau terbeliak tu mata dia. sya jungkit bahu ja, sya lg lah xtau..the feeling is back! ada lg satu ikur kucing sana luar mengintai-intai, c Nani..

'Owen!!' tinggi sdh suara Mr Liam. Owen masi tunjuk sya tp dia tingu ja tu lantai. punya kasian! sya risau sdh Mr Liam kasi marah Owen, budak lg bah tu. He knows nothing about adultness.Otomatik sya mo pg menerpa c Owen.

Dukk!! sya tersadung d kaki kerusi sya. Kurang asam! hampir2 sya tjth..masa2 bgni jga sya pndi btl kasi malu dri sdri dpn semua org..Lonad d sblh tutup mulut sdh, tus dia tingu tmpt lain. silaka! dia kasi ketawa sya..hanya Tuhan yg tau btapa malunya sya msa tu. kalau buli mau ja sya btapuk d bwh mija..nsb baik sya sempat pigang bucu mija, kalo x free2 sya cium lantai..and all eyes on me bilang tu lagu Superstar by Jamelia..

'Are u ok Bella?' tgn Mr Liam mcm ready sdh mau smbt kalo sya jatuh..tmbh muka sya membahang. merah xtau tahap apa sdh..

'Errrr..im ok.' sya senyum kelat, sya bdri tegak sdh. sya rasa pipi sya menebal 3 inci mcm tu kst wedges yg sya pakai...ini semua gara2 Owen, nsb dia comel xjd sya marah..

'Mum..' Owen p lari tmpt sya, terus dia peluk kaki sya.Now, what shud I do wit tis little boy? I cant resist his overload cuteness. in additional gemuruh juga sya rasa kena buat bgtu oleh Owen d dpn dad dia..

'Owen, come to ma..come here..' Damn! hmpr sya tsalah ckp. otomatik tu lidah sya mo ckp 'come to mama'. I was like, wat im thinking now?! Isabella u r still young..

Ah! biarlah naluri sya tu yg saling bertelingkah...sya dukung Owen. Dia peluk erat leher sya. mau sesak nafas sya..

Mr Liam pula yg kebingungan skg, bulat mata dia tingu sya n Owen.biarlah apa dia mau fkr pun bilang tu hti sya..tis is not the right time to talk about it !

'Not to tight..' sya kasi longgar tgn c Owen. terbatuk2 sdh sya. dia mau bunuh sya kaini dlm hti sya...

'Later mum will going to leave me and dad again.' God! kata2 c Owen menusuk jauh ke dlm sanubari sya. budak sekecil itu sgt petah bercakap! I lost my words..

Air muka Mr Liam tmbh keruh. I think he heard wat Owen just said. kesian dia terpinga2. skg kmi pla mcm mum n son..oh no! Mata Mr Liam xpndai lari sdh dri tingu sya...segan, rimas, malu semua berbaur dlm perasaan sya..

'Mr Liam, ur fon ringing..' sya dgr hp Mr Liam berbunyi sdh few second..
'Errrr..Bella. thanks by the way..help me look after Owen for a while, il be back shortly..' Mr Liam mcm bru kana kasi bgn dri mimpi. sya pn xtau apa yg sdg bermain2 dlm fkrn dia. we both confused of wat is happening right now!

sya angguk2 ja smbl senyum. Dia bls senyuman sya. then dia masuk d bilik dia, sayup2 sya dgr dia talking on the fon. mgkn ada client call..

ok wait! what's just now? he smile to me and I saw a rainbow, how beautiful!  <31,2,3...cepat2 sya padam tu imagination sya..

Sya usap2 kepala Owen. tertdr sdh dia. kepenatan kali nangis tadi..
'Mama not going to leave u..' sya bisik d tlnga Owen then sya kiss lembut kpla dia. I sdnly feel close to him..

I dont know what im doing, it just come out automatically from my mouth. I just feel want to do it! I doubted I am allowed to say the 'words' to Owen..I dont have the right, I guess!

You never know until you did it, Isabella. A small dream is a starting for a big dreams, who knows it impossible to be reached!