Destiny

I am Falling into Her Trap

Saya mandi, bersiap then call taxi. Cepat habis cepat pulang. I dont have plan to have a long lovely conversation with that wench. Yg sbnrnya sya memang gementar mo jumpa Emily. Sya harap dia xmengganas mcm ikan pirana, mcm dlu.

I need to be well prepared. Be strong Issabella! You can do it for Owen. Stop tat excuses, do it for urself Issabella.

Sampai sana, staff hotel tu nmpk bingung tgk sya. I know. Mst dia nmpk Emily td. Muka kmi slg xtumpah sama, copy paste bilang org. People might mistaken both of us as long lost twins. I always hate the fact!

Dri jauh lg sya nmpk sdh Emily. The lady in red. Again! Sya fkr dia mau berbaik2 dgn sya. Look at me, I am in a simple dress. And her? Mcm mo p award dinner, yala sya lupa model kn, mau p mana2 pn mst mo plg lawa.  Huh! Sya tarik nafas dlu sblm p tmpt dia. Dia lambai2 sya bila dia perasan sdh kehadiran sya. Okay, her smile doesn't look fake. Kira2 buli dipercayai.

'Hi Issabella, have a seat. Thanks for coming.' Manis ja senyuman dia. Lembut. Exactly, I feel myself in her smile. Sya rasa sya ja yg slu kisah pasal paras rupa kmi, I dont think Emily ever care. Yg dia kisah tentang diri dia dan apa yg dia mau capai. Thats it!
'Hi, u r welcome.' Kekok sya rasa duduk berdua dgn dia, apatah lg we share the same look. Mcm sya perasan ada dua tiga mata juga yg tingu2 kami.
'So, we may talk while eating.' Senyum ja dia. Mcm sya pla yg kaku btl.
'Sure.' Mcm keras ja bbr sya mo ukir senyuman. Nampaknya bru mo buat mukadimah. Point utama bakal menyusul.

From toe to head, sya tingu Emily. Her level confident is up to 100%. Baru beberapa suap dia makan tu steak dia tulak tepi sdh tu piring dia. Hurmmm patutlah badan sekeping but curvy. Rugi btl mo bawa makan buffet. Tp sya segan juga, sya dtg sini bukan untk makan2 tp untk kasi settle kekusutan soal2 hati dan perasaan.

Gluk! Gluk! Sya teguk air sya beberapa kali. Mcm sya pn kenyang sdh. I cant focus to food bfore we get to our real conversation.

'Issabella..' Emily teguk sikit tu wine merah. Sya tunggu ja apa dia mau ckp. Lambat2 lg. Hati sya menyunyut.
'First of all, sya minta maaf sebab berkasar dgn u beberapa kali. Trust me, sya cuma cemburu. Owen so close wit u.' Sayu ja pandangan dia. Cemburu? Betulkah? Mcm xbtl ja.. Caci maki dia tu apa? Nonsense juga perempuan ni sbnrnya.

'Hal sdh berlaku n sdh berlalu, forget it. I know how u feel. U ibu kandung Owen, sya hnya buat yg terbaik. Sekurang2nya Owen dpt merasa kasih seorg ibu.' What r u trying to say Issabella?!

Lain sya fkr, lain yg sya ckp. Lembut sgt hati ini, mcm tu span. Kana tuang air makin lembik. Kepuraa2an Emily atau sebaliknya mengaburi jiwa sya.

'Thanks a lot Issabella for understanding. Hati u memang baik. Bertuah Iam..' Dia tunduk sayu then tingu sya balik dgn senyuman kelat. Xcukup lg minta kasian? Mcm dia mau sya kasi balik Iam dgn dia. Itu yg terdetik d hti sya.
'Sya xbuat apa pun..' Sya jwb pndk ja. Kata2 Emily td menikam sanubari. Sya xpasti secara positif atau negatif.
'No, u done so much for Owen. What I cant do, u did it well. I mau minta tolong u boleh?' Point utama sdh kaini? Tiada ura2 Emily btukar jd Malificent pla ni mlm. She looks so nice and good to me. Yala, org yg mau something dgn kita konpomlah mau nmpk baik2 ja. Kalau awal2 pun sdh main kasar, awal2 lg kana reject.

'Tolong apa? Yg mcm mana?' Rasa ingin tahu sya melonjak tinggi. Berdebar juga rasa. Mcm mana kalau dia suruh sya kasi tggl Owen?
'I nak berbaik dgn Owen. Tolong sya Issabella. Sya tau only u can persuade Owen very well. Mst dia dgr ckp u kan.' Nada suara Emily memujuk rayu. Mcm penasaran pla sya tingu gaya dia. Bikin sesak nafas!
'Emily..'
'Please, Issabella. I really need ur help!' Mata dia mcm tu kucing Parsi lapar meminta makanan.
'Maybe..I can try. Talk to Owen...'
'Yes! Thats even better.' Lain betul itu gembira c Emily. Belum pun sya ckp setuju. Silaka! Biadap sungguh! (style c Lonad) Belum pn sya habis cakap. Rilek dlu. Itu baru bola2 api kici.
'But I cant promise. Sya harap u xberharap sgt, xjaminan I can do it well.' Sya dua hati sdh ni mo tolong ka x. I can smells negative aura! Bukan sng juga tu mau rasuah c clever boy.
'Kalau mcm tu, sya ada satu permintaan kecil.' Senyuman dia mcm berbisa racun sdh. I can saw it.
'Kalau sya mampu buat, I will try my best.' Apalagi permintaan Emily ni. Jangan dia minta intan permata sdh. I think she have plenty than me. She dont even need to have more anymore. Ini lucu..
'Kalau boleh, I mau u jarakkan skit hubungan u dgn Owen.' What?! Hampir sya terbatuk. Ngam2 sya minum lg tu air. Nasib xtersembur keluar konpom kana d muka model internasional yg mula bikin darah sya mendidih. Emily p jolok sarang tebuan ni.
'What do u mean?' Nada suara sya mula tegang. Sya dpt rasa panas d tengkuk sya mula naik d kpla. Sya xsuka apa yg bru dia ckp. Itu bkn cara yg terakhir.
'Trust me Issabella. Sya cuma mau masa lebih skit dgn Owen. Untk beberapa waktu u xperlu menyusahkan dri untk jaga Owen. Give that chance to me.' Silaka punya Emily. I never thought, look after of Owen is a trouble or burden for me. Bagi kasih syg pda Owen bkn satu kesusahan. Its like a miracle. Kenapa saja dia xterus terang dia mau menggoda balik Mr Liam? My instinct is right. She has hidden agenda. She is all fake.

Dia mau menghalau sya dri hidup dorg secra halus. Dia ingat sya ni terlalu palui ka xpaham apa yg dia sdg sampaikan. Biarpun sya bkn educated internationally I still can digest what she try to do.

Biarpun English sya pacah2 xjuga sya buduh sampai xbuli tafsir maksud tersirat dlm kata2 dia. Tp sya akun buduh sya p jumpa dia saturang sama xkasi inform siapa2. Mula2 ingat mau inform Lonad, in case anything tp sya lupa nogi.

'Permintaan u tu melampau. Ada bnyk lg cara. U ckp td lain, skg lain...' Sya cuba kawal emosi. Sya p minum lg air seteguk. Sabar sikit lg Issabella! Sya pujuk dri sdri.

Makin sya minum ni air makin sya rasa lain, mcm berat tu kpla sya. For unknown reason, I feel dizzy. Sya tahan ja, xmau kalah sama ni nine tail fox yg tersenyum sinis sdh.

'You forget something Issabella, sya ibu kandung Owen. Remember that.' How arrogant!

Remember that! Remember that! Remember that! Mcm ayat c Emily berulang2 bergema d kpla sya. Sya dgr lg Emily ketawa kuat2, jahat btl. Whats wrong with my head?! Sya picit2 dahi sya sdh. A bit heavy and dizzy.

'Ouch! Sorry.' Entah mcm mana ada satu perempuan limpas d tepi sya, tertumpah skit tu makanan kena d bju sya. Gossh! Not now..
'Sorry miss, btl2 sya xsngja.' Perempuan tu mau lap2 bju sya sdh tp sya tolak dgn baik. Mau marah pn xbuli, anak kici dia pn tarik baju dia sdh. Xsabar kali mau mkn, lapar. Mana lg dia accidentally tertumpah makanan d bju sya, anak dia lg merengek2.

'Is ok. Puan duduklah dlu bagi anak puan makan.' Sya xmau memanjangkan kes yg remeh temeh. Ada lg kes yg lbh besar yg sya perlu hadapi.
'Terima kasih. Sya btl2 minta maaf kio.' Balik2 juga dia minta maaf. Dia jeling lg anak dia sesaat. Anak dia tunduk ja gigit jari. Lepas sya angguk n senyum bru dorg jln p tmpt duduk dorg. She is just a baby, sebaya Owen..

Emily xperasaan. Air muka dia yg sebnar keluar sdh. Makin sinis lg tu air muka dia. Ignorant, arrogantly! Mau ja sya tampar2 tu pp mulus dia. Bikin panas. Tergendala sekejap rundingan kami.

'I think I need to go to the washroom.' Sya berdri kasi tggl Emily. Mau p kasi bersih dlu tu bju sya. Msa2 bgni lg sya mo calm down kijap. Panas hati sya tingu dia selamba ja, skit pun xrasa bersalah. Going to the washroom is the way to release my emotion. Emily and I are different. I am not that type easily gone crazy in anger smpi mau teriak2 org d khalayak umum.

All the way to washroom kepala sya berat btl mcm ada batu kana kasi masuk d dlm. Rasa sakit mengantuk yg amat sangat. Sya pigang2 sdh tu dinding untk support sya. Takkanlah seawal ni sya mengantuk btl?

Did Emily put something on my drink? She drugs me, I guess. Xsempat sya fkr, berpinar2 sdh pndgn sya. Everything around me is black. All black!

Bagaikan nenek kebayan dan Snow White. The epal was poisoned! I hope somebody come to rescue me.

I am not done yet, I still have a lot to say. Belum habis lg kmi punya perang dunia ke-4 yg bru ja mula. Meriam pun belum lg kana kasi keluar. How come I end up like tis?

I saw Emily laugh out loud in my dark world!