Destiny

Confuse

Sya teringat sdh rumah sya. satu mlm sdh kana tinggal. sya teringat tu dua ikur ikan koruk sya drumah. sya tau ikan koruk tu tahan lasak tp kalo bhari2 x kana kasi mkn pndi kebuluran jga tu...I miss u Loca & Lola! itu nama ikan koruk sya ah..

Sya mau pulang tp Mr Liam bilang stay for another night. I was, who I am now to him?! Suka suki hati dia saja arah2 sya ini itu..yes! he is my boss at the office but now we are out of working place! why even he is so bossy? why he dont let me decide...stress kpla sya! this dad & son driving me nuts..

'Tomorrow we will go together at ofis. no worry, I wont let people talking bhind u..' Mr Liam tepuk blkg sya.

'But..'
'Please! for Owen..' Alasan! Owen ok sdh pn sya nmpk..kalau rumah sya dkt sdh sya jln kaki..ni rumah dia sdhla jauh dri highway, bus pn x mask...I cant run away!

'I dont hve anything to wear..' sya teringt mana sya ada bwa bju. xkn balik2 sya reuse bju yg sma.. yuck!

'No problem..you can borrow Sarra's closet first. ptg ni kita pg bli..' Sarra? first time sya dgr tu nama Mr Liam sebut. mcm lain sya rasa..cemburu kah sya? No! gilakah sya mo jelous2...cpt2 sya sdr dri.

I know, Mr Liam anggap sya 'ibu pinjam' Owen seja. perhaps a nanny! all I dreamed, all he been doing might be he just lost control of his emotion.He might be miss his wife so much until he used me.sya pkr bgtu ja. but im not sure, half of my soul is crying..perasaan apakah ini?

'Bella, u cried?' Mr Liam p kesat air mata sya dgn tgn dia. Gossh! sya xsdr sya ngs..mulau!

'Oh, I miss my fish at home.' sya tipu. sya cpt2 memblkg dia.sya lap2 air mata sya tp makin laju pla..sakit dada sya. buduh oh kau Bell! sya mrh dri sdri..

'Come here..' Mr Liam tarik sya dlm pelukan dia. sya mo lepas tp mcm biasa dia main paksa..

'Sarra is my younger sister. She used to come here to accompny Owen bfore she futher her study at Melbourne. she left few closet here. sya rasa u ngam, coz ur size almost same..S Size!' dia p tekan tu S Size.

Silaka! sya tulak bdn dia. panas terus kpla sya, malu..
1) sya terjelos pdahal we r not in a special relationship
2) dia ckp sya S Size..silaka! sya S Size pun ada curve ok!

'Dont be so stuborn Bella. I know u feel me too. right?' dia xkasi lepas sya, dia pndg sya dlm2. sya tunduk...can I say yes? No, yes..

When did we start to fall each other, I dont know.the feeling is there but I have to denied it..

'Your wife..' itu pla yg terkeluar dri mulut sya. sya ada nmpk gmbr dorg bertiga d bilik Owen. She is beautiful! tp sya xtgk dgn jelas tu muka dia. mcm ala2 model...I need to ask bfore my feeling start deepen for him! I accidentally in love wit him, I dont ask it to happen either..sya masi sdr lg, I would never ever be a marriage breaker! I am a women too..

Terus Mr Liam kasi lepas sya. nah kmu tau laitu kan.. He shudnt let me hope! He shudnt make me fall for his action. He shudnt lost control his emotions until he saw his wife inside me..

'We talk about it later..' keruh terus air muka dia. how could he confusing me!

'Give me a hint, so I dont cross the line..' terketar2 bibir sya ckp mo thn sebak. No, Issabella! stay calm...sya motivate myself!

'We are over..she nvr come back!' sayu saja suara Mr Liam. his answer is not wat I want to hear. he also not confirmed his feeling yet..either for me even for his wife!

'How if she return tomorrow or the next tomorrow..' I just want to know, so I can handle my feeling towards him..

Mr Liam tunduk..sya nmpk dia pejam mata smbl tarik nfs. I knew his answer! sya rasa pipi sya panas...tus sya pusing memblkg dia. sya lap air mata sya.

'Owen is calling for me..' padahal x2 sya dgr Owen pggl sya.bergetar suara sya thn ngs.tus sya kasi tinggal Mr Liam yg terpinga..

Lagu Geeks feat Ailee Wash Away terngiang-ngiang sdh d tlnga sya..dat is wat I need to do after this! wash away my feeling...

There is always a way out Issabella! Face it, dont run away...