Destiny

He is back!

Capat2 sya naik d rumah. Singgah sekejap mo tukar air sama bagi makanan tu koruk sya. nasib dorng masih lg berenang-renang. Td takut2 sdh sya imagine kalo Loca sama Lola terapung sdh dlm tu mini akuarium dorang. Kalau dorang kebulur, konpom sya merajuk 7 hari 7 malam sama c Mr Liam. I don’t k if he used Owen to persuade me! Try if he can..

‘Mami so sorry leave u guys many days..’ Sya tukar air sama bagi dorang makanan. Atukkoii punya godoot dorg mkn, kasian kelaparan sdh ni dua ikur koruk sya. Semua gara2 mami dorg mabuk cinta sama geng dorg a.k.a koruk jadian Liam hahaha

Mcm kalang kabut btl sya, Mr Liam tunggu sya d bwh, sya suruh dia tdr2 dlu kijap dlm kereta. Tok!!! Tok!!! Tok!!! Aik takkan masa-masa begini juga ada orang dtg. Punya awal! Sepa pula, my mummy? Cant be. Mummy biasa call me one day bfore kalau mau visit sya sini.

‘Ya! Kijap..’ Sya teriak smbl lap2 lebihan2 air d akuarium. Sya ampai ja tu kain lap d mija terus sya p lari buka pintu. Mana tau poslaju hntr parcel? Cant be too, blm working hours..Issshh! bilang tu hati sya.. masa sya mau cpt bgni ada pla tetamu x diundang. Belum pn sya sampat tingu2 pisuk rumah sya, mana tau ada cicak mati ka..

Sya buka pintu. Bangg!! Mcm hati sya kana timbak M16. I thought I forget already the face! Raut wajah sama senyuman dia masih macam dlu. Mcm kana sejuk beku terus badan sya nmpk dia. I am dreaming? This is dream or what? God! Jantung sya mcm mau meletup sdh terlampau laju tu degupan…fast & furious bilang kalau versi Sabahan laju sama bikin meradang.

‘Bell, still remember me?’ Saat dia sebut nama sya, longai terus seluruh tulang sya. Mcm  sya mau terjatuh ja. Bergagar terus badan sya. Capat2 sya pigang hujung pintu untk support bdn sya.

‘Don…why?’ Bergetar2 lg bibir sya bckp. Itu ja yg sya mampu cakap. I think we are over 3 years ago. Why he is here now?

‘Can I come inside?’ Shud i? or shudnt i? Sya xbuka tu grill, pintu ja. Iam? Sya teringat Iam sana bawah tunggu sya. Masa tu sya berdoa ja dia tdr seja.
‘Bell, do u hear me? I came.. Is really me.’ Dia ingat sya tuli dan buta kah? I heard him correctly and saw him clearly..NO! I cant let him in, bilang tu naluri sya. Sya xtau apa yg sya rasa skg. Keliru! What he want from me again?
‘What r u doing here Don?  I thought we broke up 3 years ago. Olivia..’
‘I have nothing to do with Olivia!’ Tegas tu suara dia, xsmpt sya habis ckp. Aiii memanas pla dia kana sebut nama Olivia. Don’t she is the girl he love most? Dia ingat benih yg dia tanam d perut Olivia tu mcm rumput ja buli cabut begitu seja? He is wrong! Sakit hati sya dgn kecurangan dia tu bkn mudah sya lupa. No Don, who do u think u r? Berjuta persoalan dlm kpla sya sbnrnya sampai xtau apa mau ckp..

‘I also nothing to do with you. Go back now bfore I call the security to report u as breaking into my house!’ Dia ingat dia seja ada amarah. Sya yg patut marah bukan dia. He shud be grateful I never hate him even how deep he hurt me. Coz I love him once, I will never ever hate him. Tp untk kembali semula dgn dia, I don’t have tat kind of thought.

‘Bell, please! Jangan terlalu kejam. Give me chance to explain everything..’ Kejam? Siapa yg kejam sbnrnya..sya atau dia? Tell me Don, how cruel I am to u and how cruel you to me?

Semuanya sdh terlambat. Apalg yg dia mau explain, dia mau kasitau dia bahagia sama Olivia wit their baby? I don’t want to know anything! I can tell him too, I am happy now! With Iam and Owen..but I am not strong enough to say it. Don’t say there is till a tiny feeling left over for Don, Issabella! Remember, he make u fall apart! Naluri sya bertingkah2 lagi. Pedih terus tu dada sya, mcm tersedak lada..

‘Don! Please go! I beg you..’ Sya mau menangis sdh. Sya pigang dada sya sdh. Ternyata luka d hati sya masi berbaki.. Iam please save me! Sya bilang dlm hati. Masa ni sya berdoa sdh Mr Liam cari sya.
‘Bell..r u ok?’ Don hulur tgn dia dari luar tu grill. Sya mo terduduk sdh. My chest hurt so much!

Pang!!! Sya tulak pintu kuat2. Sayup2 ja sya dgr Don panggil nama sya. Palan2 sya terduduk d blkg pintu. Sya pigang2 dada sya. Admit it Issabella! Now, u r a criminal in love! I am crying. For what? Sya berabis xmau akun tu perasaan. NO! I love Iam, Don is a memory..
Balik2 juga Don ketuk tu pintu. Sya xmau buka lg. Sya peluk lutut sya, sya tahan2 tu tangisan sya. Sya xmau Don dingar sya nangis, sya xmau dia tau sya nangis.

‘Go away!!’ Sya teriak yg bergetar sdh tu suara sya.
‘Bell! Buka pintu dlu. We need to talk..’ Apalg dia mau cakap? After 3 years dia tiba2 d dpn rumah sya, dia ingat sya ni tmpt persinggahan?
‘No! Just go!!’ Sya teriak lagi.
‘Bell..’ Palan sdh tu suara c Don. Mgkn dia putus asa sdh.
‘Bell, I will go but I’ll be back and I will make sure to tell u the truth.’ Lepas tu sya xdgr lg dia merayu2. Mcm sya dgr tapak kaki dia turun d tangga.

Xlama lepas tu sya dgr ada tapak kaki lgi. Jelas btl sya dgr, mcm yg belari. I thought Don is leaving, dia patah balik pula. Bunyi tapak kaki tu btl2 stop dpn pintu rumah sya. Iam! Sya teringat Mr Liam. How I wish he is coming. I need him now!

Tok! Tokk!! Tokkk!!! Kana ketuk balik tu pintu rumah sya. Not again!

‘Go away!!’ Sya teriak lg kuat tus sya meraung nangis. Sya xpeduli sdh. I just want he go away, far away from my life. The pain is combing back as he appeared bfore my eyes. 
‘Bella..its me. Iam. Open the door!’ Iam? Cepat2 sya lap air mata sya yg paling kering. Padahal sama juga, sya rasa mata sya merah sudah. Sya gagahkan diri untuk bangun. Gagar2 lagi tgn sya mo pulas tu tombol pintu. Come on Issabella! Whats wrong with you? Bukankah lama dlu kau juga yg halau dia dri hidup kau? Now, what??
‘Iam..’ Sya sebut2 nama Iam. Sya buka pintu palan2. Mr Liam p tarik tu pintu grill. God! Sya xkunci pula. Nasib baik Don xperasaan td.
‘Bella!’ Cepat2 dia tangkap bdn sya sblm sya mo terjatuh balik. Longai sya rasa seluruh bdn sya.
‘Iam..’ Sya jatuh dlm pelukan dia. Cemas sdh muka Mr Liam. Mo balas pelukan dia pn tgn sya xmampu.
‘Don’t say anything..’ Mr Liam usap2 rambut sya, dia kiss2 kpla sya lg. Makin laju air mata sya merembes mcm tu mata air dlm tanah. Dia nmpk Don ka tadi? Sempat lg sya terfkr bgtu.

Now, I feel guilty towards Iam! He don’t know anything about my past yet. Stay strong Issabella!

(P/S: Mcm sya pun mau nangis..waaaaaaa hahaha)