SyntheticHeart's Poems and Songs

Was it me? (Song)

Warning: Mildly graphic description ahead. 

Jaret, he abused me, laughing at my pathetic sobbing

His so-called friends stood by laughing as he held a knife to my neck, whispering

"Shhh- Everything will be okay, just don't scream..."

Now his smirking face haunts my dreams

I still don't even know their names!

After I kept my mouth shut pondering if I was to blame

Tell me, am I to blame?

Was it me?  Was it me? Was it me!?

Kyle, that poor lost soul.

Somehow in my arms he found home

But inside, I did not know what love was

I just enjoyed the warmth between us

Now his heart is shattered because of me

I broke him like they broke me

Tell me, am I to blame?

Was it me?  Was it me? Was it me!?

Jasmine, when she kissed me I knew she meant well

She did not want to turn my life back into a living hell

But when right in front of me he gave her flowers and confessed to her

Then I knew I had to let go of her

And it was alright. I was okay.

But now I see my messed-up life is still just the same

Tell me, am I to blame?

Was it me?  Was it me? Was it me!?

Davis... He tortured me physically and mentally

In public he would threaten, "Show me you love me..."

At the time, I did feel love. Real, genuine adoration.

But never towards him, that vile creation!

He was so corrupt, perhaps caused by me

I was a temptation, an easy victim to his stupid game

Tell me, am I to blame?

Was it me?  Was it me? Was it me!?

Mary, she was light in my world of shadow

I was happy as her friend when she never really knew my sorrows

When she told me she loved me, all of the pain that was haunting me

Seemed to fade away... and for a moment I was happy.

But he was worth far more, so she left me

Now I am left thinking, was it because of me?

Tell me, am I to blame?

Was it me?  Was it me? Was it me!?

I lie awake wondering...

Was it me?  Was it me!?

...Is it me?