I close my eyes and enjoy the flavor of chololate on my tongue,
Trying what I have been terrified to do since I was young.
One hour, one more. Nothing happens, another hour, half a piece
When will it hit, I ask? I want a taste of what everyone tells me is peace
Another hour passes before the high hits, the ground below me caving in
Bringing to light the demons I've kept trapped within
Panic fills my mind as I understand why I need to take my time
My eyes glued to a flickering light, colorful streaks filling my line of sight.
My breathing grows heavy as sounds around me grow louder,
My sense of touch strangley vivid, with the effect growing stronger
My mice squeak and cry as the sound of swaying trees become voices
In a whisper growing louder, they scold my life choices
I bury my head in my hands as the voices begin to scream...
"Disgusting, unprofessional!" But I know it's only a dream!
Snap out of it dammit, this is too much! But more voices fill the air
I try to will it away like a lucid dream, but the voices don't care
"You're just like he was, you know." A voice yells, getting closer
My body quivers and my heart pounds as a shadowy figure draws near
"Bipolar, self-concious, violent" he states as reality bends around his form
I close my eyes and try to relax, slipping into a heavier jacket and growing warm
Closing the window and laying down, staring up at the ceiling
I catch the scent of perfume and the sound of labored breathing
A warm body looming over me, as I try to relax in the twisting reality
Teeth sinking into my neck as my chest fills with a familliar tingling
"Korra, relax" the voice beaconed in a feminine whisper
I knew she wasnt there, but she was right. My breathing grew deeper
As i sunk into the bed and let the warmpth consume me
Panic took its toll as my mind wandered... What would they think?
The thought replayed, again and again, as if it were new each time
My mind couldnt even comprehend the passing time.
As i slipped into unconciousness, I reminded myself...
"Never again."
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SyntheticHeart's Poems and Songs
PoesiaHere are some of the poems and songs I wrote! There is a story behind each and every one of these poems and songs, and I want to share them with the world. Thank you for reading! Note: On May 10, 2019, many works were removed from this collection du...
