31 Days with Ross

Day 20

Day 20 

Ross's POV

The dinner was a huge disaster. I didn't know whether I should be happy or not with how things turned out. Andrea wanted to be noticed and she was just doing it perfectly. I wanted to strangle her but having done that would only make things worse. Well, wait... I already did make things worse by feeling so off after what happened at dinner with the two women. In one way, I managed to make Grace suspicious of my reaction last night. The stupidity just got the best of me. What should I do now? The stakes are getting higher ever day. The fact that Andrea works closely with Grace is already nerve wracking in itself. I don't want to lose Grace. Thinking about it makes me worry a lot. 

I noticed that she joined me in bed last night. I was so happy that she did. The whole time that I was in bed before she came in was all pretending. I tried my best to keep my eyes shut the whole time because the word sleep never crossed my mind. What was I to do? My body demanded I drift off to Neverland while my mind tried to work on its own. The only comfort that I had when it comes to sleeping was with Grace's body close to mine. She's the balm that soothes my uneasy soul that breaks into pieces when I lose the sight of her.

She stirs now. Her hair slightly dishevelled but she still looks mighty fine. Her eyes start to open and meet the weary ones that I have. She touched the side of my face.

"Good morning handsome," she said. She smiled but her smile didn't reach her eyes. She was worried, I can surely tell. And it was all because of me.

"Good morning beautiful," I replied. We just lied in bed facing each other without uttering a word. The only sound that comforted us was the sigh that each of us gave. 

She stared into my eyes with sadness that I've never seen before and made me want to punch myself for being so stupid and selfish for keeping everything from her. Guilt was slowly creeping now. 

"I'm so sorry about last night. I didn't expect her to come barging in like that. I think she hates me that much. She's desperate to ruin everything for me."

Yeah and I know why she's doing that to you I hissed in my mind. 

"I'll make it up to you I swear. Let's plan our second date. Where do you want to go?" she asked me as she took my hand and held it between us.

"Shhhh.. you don't need to say sorry. It's me who should be sorry. I made you worry too much. I shouldn't have reacted that way."

I hope what I just told her would make her feel better, but the moment I stared at our hands I heard her sob. What should I do now? I'm the dumbest person there is. All I could do was to be a coward and keep on hiding the truth from her. I just had to do something more than wiping her tears away.

"Hey, you don't need to cry about it, baby...shh... It's okay, really." You can blame it all on me! my mind yelled. 

Later that day, I decided to take the time off. I needed time to think about things. Who says men don't think about things like this? I just had to figure a way to get rid of Andrea in any possible way. I had to talk some sense into her little closed mind and somehow make the idea that we're through clear to her. I know that the only way that we could put a closure to this whole thing is by meeting her. Just as I was about to dial her number, my phone rang and I had a strange pang of relief that it was Andrea.    

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We decided to meet at the restaurant in the next town. I didn't want to take a risk of anyone from the magazine catching me meeting up with this woman. I have to be as far as I can possibly be from Grace and the whole crew of the magazine. I slid into the most secluded area of the restaurant and waited anxiously for Andrea to come. My hands were shaking and my heart was beating wildly because I once again lied to Grace. Meeting another woman without her knowing made me want to shoot myself in the gut.