11:36pm
I felt the breeze of the fan on my feet, like a featherlight pillow. It was very soothing, but my mind didn't focus on it for long. Instead, I thought about the list again. The long list of things I need to do. And though, everything is a choice and I don't have to do anything, I still feel like I do. Is that what motivation is? You do things because you feel guilty if you don’t? I thought about where motivation comes from again. Why do we do the things we do? My brow tenses so much it hurts. Am I thinking too hard? My stomach also began to tense up and hurt and I realized I was hunching forward like an old woman. I had to focus on my breathing to ease the tension.
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Meditations
Non-FictionI started to meditate to help with my anxiety, but as I learned more about meditation, it opened my mind up in unexpected ways. This book is a simple guide to starting your meditation practice and a log of my spiritual journey.
