4:31pm
I was feeling anxious and I wanted to smoke, but we're low on finances, so I decided to meditate instead to conserve. It was hard to focus at first. I tried to talk myself out of meditation by asking questions like what's the point and telling myself I'm wasting my time. Then I thought about what I would be doing if I wasn't meditating. I would be smoking or eating or playing my game, trying to distract myself from the fact that I'm lonely. Meditating helped me get through my period of anxiety and showed me I don't have to always give into my urges. The song Attention by Charlie Puth kept popping up in my head. I've been wondering about wanting attention and why it's frowned upon. I suppose validation is supposed to come from within, but it's nice to receive compliments from others. It's nice to feel wanted, loved and valued.
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Meditations
Non-FictionI started to meditate to help with my anxiety, but as I learned more about meditation, it opened my mind up in unexpected ways. This book is a simple guide to starting your meditation practice and a log of my spiritual journey.
