Saudade (Joshler)

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Small mentions of scars, is not that bad tho. But I'll still put Mr. Monkey.

Tyler and josh got back to the house and went to the living room. The two sat on the couch and Tyler pulled a blanket over the two. Josh turned on the Tv, putting it on Lilo and stitch. Tyler rested his head on Josh's shoulder, snuggling closer. "I love you, josh."

Josh kissed Tyler's cheek, "I love you too."

Abigail walked into the living room, rubbing her tired eyes. She was still in her pajamas and had a teddy bear in one arm. She smiled at the two, "can I watch Tv with you?" Tyler nodded and she crawled onto his lap. She would giggle every time something funny happened and Tyler couldn't help but smile. Abigail began playing with Tyler's fingers absentmindedly, "TyTy, are you gonna marry josh when your older?"

Josh blushed and Tyler chuckled. "Only time will tell."

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Tyler grinned at josh, who playfully rolled his eyes. Tyler and josh focused back on the tv as Abigail continued to play with Tyler's fingers and the palm of his hand. She suddenly gasped, "TyTy! You're hurt!" Tyler looked down to see Abigail had pulled up the sleeve of his hoodie.

Josh's eyes went wide, "Abigail, no-" Tyler squeezed Josh's hand with his free one, giving him a reassuring smile.

"I'm not hurt, they're just scars."

Abigail frowned, "but that means you were hurt, how did you get the scars? Was it a cat, cats can be mean."

Tyler shook his head, "nope, there battle scars."

Abigail grinned, "you were in a battle? Did you win?"

Tyler smiled back, "not yet, but I'm fighting back."

Abigail tilted her head, "who are you fighting?"

"These big monsters. There real meanies."

Abigail let out a huff, "I hate monsters. There used to be one under my bed, but josh scared him away."
Tyler smiled at the thought of josh scaring away a 'monster'. Abigail poked at the scars, "do you think you'll win?"

Tyler looked at his arm and frowned, "I'm not sure. They're pretty strong monsters."

Abigail turned around so she was facing Tyler, "I can help you. Ashley has been teaching me how to fight off monsters, just in case the monster under my bed comes back."

Tyler ruffled Abigail's hair, "that's very kind of you, but this is a battle I have to fight by myself."

Abigail nodded, "ok, I bet you can kick their butts."

Tyler chuckled, "I'll try."

Abigail got out of his lap and ran to the kitchen, "I'm getting food!"

Tyler turned to josh with a smile, but frowned when josh was looking at him with his own frown. His face showed concern. Tyler shrugged, "what?"

Josh gulped, "what do you mean you're not sure?"

Tyler's eyebrows furrowed together, "what do you mean."

Josh scooted closed, "when Abigail asked if you were going to win, you said you weren't sure." Tyler bit his lip, looking down. Josh cupped his cheeks to make Tyler look at him, "you are going to win. And your not in this alone, your not fighting this by yourself. I'm going to be by your side the whole way through."

Tyler nodded his head before hugging josh tightly. "I love you," he whispered

. Josh smiled, rubbing Tyler's back soothingly, "I love you too, darling."

Tyler smiled at the nickname, "darling."

Josh chuckled, "what, do you not like it?"

Tyler smiled wider, "I love it."

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Tyler laid on top of josh, his head resting on Josh's chest. Their hands were outstretched and their fingers were locked. Tyler closed his eyes and looked out he window at the stars. Josh spoke up in a mumble, "what should we do when we go to Rome?"

Tyler gulped, "...I don't know. "

Josh chuckled, "come on, we gotta plan this out." Tyler smiled weakly, his heart aching. Josh lifted Tyler's head, kissing him. He pulled away, but kept his head close to Tyler's. although it was dark in the room, he could still see Tyler's wide eyes. "Would you wanna spend your future with me?"

Tyler hesitated before answering, "yes."

Tyler could see josh grin through the dark, "good, because I don't think life would be as good without you by my side. All these other boys are pretty lame."

Tyler smiled again, not trusting his words. Instead, he settled with kissing josh. He wanted to be around him as much as he could. Josh pulled away to speak again, "maybe we could find a house together. That way, your you're my side at all times and I could make sure no one ever hurts you."

Tyler frowned, "josh, don't blame yourself with what happened with Jacoby...do you?"

Josh nodded, "I do. And I'm going to do anything I can to make it up to you."

Tyler shook his head, "it's not your fault."

Josh ran a hand up and down the slope of Tyler's back, "I don't care, it's my fault. And I will make it up to you, this is a promise that I'm not going to break."
Tyler blinked and a tear fell onto Josh's cheek. "Don't cry, baby," josh whispered.

Tyler nodded, wiping his eyes. "I love you so much, Tyler. And it kills me to see you in pain. I won't rest till your happy and free from all this weight held down on you. I will live for the day to see your eyes shining again, full of love and joy."

Tyler let out a small cry, "you deserve so much better, josh. You deserve someone who is happy all the time. Not someone you have to fight for to be happy."

Josh shook his head, "it cant get any better than you, Tyler. I feel like the luckiest person in the world to have you. Don't ever think different. I love you."

Tyler leaned down to kiss josh again, a few more tears falling onto Josh's cheeks. Josh ran his fingers through Tyler's hair, smiling into the kiss.

Mooooore fluff at the end. Your welcome!! Lol. I'm like super pissed cos I tried telling my mom I have anxiety and she blew it off that I just need to raise my confidence.

Then she started going off about this girl she works with  that has anxiety and how she's annoying. She said that she just needs to suck it up sometimes and I told her that it's not that easy since it's a mental illness. And she replies with not really.

Like, seriously? Thanks for the support mom.

Anyyyywayyyy... hope you enjoyed the chapter!! Have a nice day/night!! Byeeeeee

-JoJo
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