Truths Desire ~ Emerald Lodge (Aphmau fanfic with inserted characters)

Dad...

*Snows POV*

Who was he... who was he... I could see him in the back of my mind but I couldn't remember who he was!

For a while, we just stood there, staring at each other, neither making a movement nor a sound. Then the silence was over. He made the first move, stepping away from me and wandering around the room. He stopped by a picture of me when I first started Golden Oak Primary, a massive smile set upon my face. If only I had known what I would have to face in the future.

It seemed like forever before he spoke to me. I guessed he had been waiting to see if I would speak first, but my head was too jumbled to bring words to my tongue. His voice was soothing and reminded me of being a small child, unable to do anything for myself, but feeling the protection which flowed around me. "Seems like a lifetime ago that I saw you Snow, you have grown so much... I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you when you were growing up... but I'm here now."

Then it struck me. What if I had been looking into the wrong place in my mind, trying o remember too deeply. All I needed to remember was one phrase. Ill be watching over you forever. Ill always be here for you, even if you may not see me. Ill be here until it is your turn to come and see me again. Tears rolled down my face, and I closed my eyes. It took me a while to stop the flood of sadness which washed over me, reminding me of what happened and what I did. But what did I do... I know I did something terrible, but my mind is so jumbled... everything is mixed up and swapped.

When I opened my eyes to look up at him, his crystal eyes met mine. I had no other words to speak, so I just said what first came to my tongue. "Mother always said I had the same crystal eyes as you... now I see. I'm so sorry dad... I didn't follow what you told me... on that day... I was just lost and sad that I-"

Suddenly I was cut off as two arms wrapped around my shoulders. I felt protected. He rested his chin on the top of my head and kissed my forehead gently before doing so. He had done the same everyday before he left me at school and started his journey to work. It was his promise, he would tell me every time I asked, it's just to show that I am always here, if there is anything, you are more important than money or jobs, I promise I will always put you first, he would whisper into my ear. But this time he whispered something different. "What do you want to know? I will answer any questions you have as honestly as I can." And with that we pulled apart, walked to a small coffee table, and sat opposite each other on a pair of matching white leather armchairs.

There were so many questions that popped into my head, it was hard to figure out which to ask first. "Well, first off I must ask... am... am I dead...?" My father looked up at me, slightly confused as to why that may be the first question I asked. It took him a while before he answered. "That is a strange question to ask... but I said I would answer honestly. You are dead, yes, but also no. A small part of your soul is still clinging to the human world, which is why you probably can't remember much. There is still a way to send you back... but for now that can't be left for a while. Time is slowed here, so you have only been gone from your world a few minutes. Your friends will still be by your side." At that I shook my head, looking at the floor. "I doubt it... I tried to kill Misty... and then I went for Garroth..." as I said that, it sparked some interest for my father. "That's one question I had... what stopped you from hurting that boy... Garroth you said his name was?" I nodded, he clearly hadn't been watching THAT deeply into my life, thankfully. But it was hard to explain since I didn't really understand why I couldn't hurt him... "I-I don't really know... but his eyes... they always made me feel safe... they are beautiful and confident... they just stopped me... then it was over... Aaron took a stab to my back and I just transformed back into my human form... then everything faded away, the last thing I remember is Garroth speaking to me... but I can't even remember what he said." Tears formed and trickled down my face. My father was looking at me, a questioning expression set soon his face.

It took me a moment before I felt ready to ask another question. I wiped my tears away and raised my head. Ever since I was a child this question had lingered in the back of my mind, but mother was never one to tell those things. "Is it rude to ask this... but I just always wondered... what was it that you did which made you put your life on the line to save others...? I'm sorry if you don't want to answer and you don't have to, but ever since that day when I was seven... I have always wondered... mother would never tell me of course... it would hurt her too much..." Pain flashed across his eyes but it disappeared so quickly that I questioned whether it had actually appeared. I wanted the closest to an answer which I could get, so I wasn't going to rush him. When he spoke, his answer was the opposite of what I had expected. "Well, I knew this day would come... as you must already know, before I met your mother I was married to another woman and not even your mother knows her name, I told no one about her except the fact that she existed and died of a disease while giving birth to our second child... well... that isn't exactly true... While with my wife, we lived a normal and happy life, normal to the fact I stayed as a proper human and completely hid the fact I was a werewolf. But then one day, they changed. Before now, our son Luke, your half brother, had just had his second birthday. Serah was pregnant with another child but this time we decided that we would keep the gender a secret until he or she was born. That was such a horrible choice," for a while he went silent, but he wasn't finished. He knew that it was time to shed light on the truth, but it hurt, and he just needed time to gather his thoughts before he continued. "A few days before the baby was due, a man came to visit me at my work. At that point me and Serah were living in Westwood city in America. Our house was cozy and fitted us nicely, but I was working in a high paying business to try and afford a bigger house which we could make home. It was then that a man walked into my office one afternoon, he said he was here to discuss a werewolf issue. Soon after I realised he was hinting that he know I myself, was a werewolf. He soon got bored of our conversation, which he called a game, so he got straight to the point. He was there only to make a deal with me. The deal was based on some information he had gotten, which had told him what I was and that if I didn't allow him to use me for tests, my wife and unborn child would die. I refused, thinking stupidly that it was a lie, but true to his word, the worst happened. I never forgave myself after that incident. After, I sold the house and moved away, putting my life on the line to save any I could... It took a while for me to get over the incident and push it away slightly, Serah wouldn't have wanted me to just throw my whole life away before of what happened. After I met your mother, things seemed to make sense again, Luke had a stepmother who loved him dearly, and I had a new thing to fight for... but clearly I did t fight hard enough..." After that he cut out completely. As he told me what I had asked, it tore my insides apart and tears started to flood my face.

Then, I was sure. It didn't matter that I hardly knew him anymore, I knew what I had to say. The only word I knew which could make this easier to take... I got up and walked over to where he sat, head in hands. The pain he was feeling radiated from his body. I threw my arms around his shoulders, and hugged him tightly. Then I whispered into his ear, instead of him to mine. "I don't ever want you to leave me again... dad..."