Mistaken

Insomnia

I haven't slept all summer,
I guess insomnia's a bummer.
But I can't let it pull me under,
There's a reason for no slumber.
I have nightmares every day,
I always see him in different ways.
And I just can't help but say,
He broken my heart, then ran away.
But he broke more than just my heart,
He was my light and now it's dark.
My whole body has an ache,
And he can never be replaced.
I am hurt while I'm awake,
He slithered in, just like a snake.
And he tore down every wall,
Made the cracks in my heart seem small.
I was like his puppet,
He pulled the strings and I really loved it.
But now he's gone,
And I'm not his doll.
But I feel lost without "I love you,"
Like evaporating morning dew.
And I wish he'd follow through,
His promises were empty and I knew.
But I didn't want to admit it,
He's an addiction and I couldn't quit it.
Now he's gone and I'm alone,
And I'm waiting by the phone.
But I know he'll never call.
Without me, he's having a ball.
Because I bring everyone down,
Just by being around.
I am lost and need to be found.
Too many feelings, I think I'll drown.
Sit me down and buy me a crown,
I'm crying on the ground,
Because I'm the queen of sadness.
No king, no one would have this.
But I always laughed the loudest,
And my friends surround us.
So no one could've guessed,
My fake smile was the best.
And he didn't notice my distress,
Because I was the best dressed.
Look at my long sleeved vest,
The way I crossed my arms over my chest.
The way the scars got closer to my wrist,
When I felt like I shouldn't exist.
And he'll watch with fake interest,
Because he fell for society's tricks.