Mistaken

Years

It's been five years,
I'm still not the same.
I wish you were here,
I still feel the shame.
I wished you would die,
Didn't know you really would.
I miss your smile,
I miss your moods.

It's been four years,
I'm still not okay.
I miss you dearly,
Every single day.
You spoiled me silly,
Acted like a kid.
You made me happy,
It still makes me sad.

It's been three years,
You're still not here.
It's still not clear,
What happened, dear.
You fell on the floor,
And I started to cry.
I miss you even more,
Than the day you died.

It's been two years,
You haven't come.
You left us, Dad,
Left us alone.
You walked right out,
You packed your bags.
I waited for a shout,
But you'd rather do drugs.

It's been almost a year,
You haven't cared.
I'm dying, here.
I'm kinda scared.
You won't text back,
I miss you, though.
It makes me sad,
Pick up the phone.