Mistaken

Intentions

I wish I'd seen your intentions,
But your laugh was truly infectious.
I never listened to your condescension,
So I sat there in detention.
Got caught texting you in school,
I guess you really had me fooled.
While I thought you were so cool,
You used me like a tool.
I didn't realize you were actually an ass.
But now it's too late, my heart feels like glass.
Like it shattered after a big blast.
And I just have to ask,
What would you do if I died?
What if I had tried?
Would you listen to them chide?
I have to know, would you have cried?
Did you ever really love me?
Am I really not that ugly?
Did you care when my arms were bloody?
To you, I guess this is funny.
But to me, it's breaking,
In the middle of every breath I'm taking.
And I'm sitting here just shaking,
Wishing you weren't faking.