Mistaken

Little Girl

Just because you left when I fell,
Doesn't mean I didn't get back up.
Even though you put me through hell,
Doesn't mean there isn't still love.
Even though I was once just a shell,
All I really needed was a little shove.
All the while you ignored the deal,
Acting like you were sent from above.
Can't you see all a little girl needs,
Is a father to show her she's loved?
I can't remember the girl I used to be,
Because when you left she was hung.
I can't remember how I didn't see,
That you were always doing drugs.
I don't even remember the real me,
Because she left for me to be brave.
I don't see why you had to leave,
When a father is all that I crave.
Sometimes I can't even breathe,
And I just need to be saved.
I really needed a savior,
All those times I wanted to die.
I cut into my skin like paper,
Asking myself why.
I popped bottles of pills at a time,
Wanted to die so I tried and tried.
I've got seven attempts so far,
Seven hundred thousand scars.
I really wish you understood,
That this was really hard on me.
I wish your brain wasn't soot,
Dad, I just wish you could see.