What if I quit Wattpad? That was a legitimate question I had today and honestly I'm scared by the thought what emotional low have I had to turn on my only friends and leave, I have knew more joy and happiness talking to you guys over the past year why would I take that away from myself? I feel selfish for having all these feelings as of late and disappearing but what can I do I have always had the odds stacked against me all my life it's about time I show grief and sorrow something resembling emotion, I have done a lot in a year and changing my life around may very well be part of it, I have a lot of long lasting sorrow from my wife sadly no amount of help will stop that, I lived a life as a emotionless husk for years of my life not knowing happiness or sorrow and the only other person I've met like this was molested by family it's sad needless to say especially knowing I did this to myself as some sort of psychology experiment when I was young believing that with emotions comes failure as emotions are illogical and can doom lesser men, I still wish I could go back to this emotionless state but my wife made that impossible at first I blamed her for that before coming to accept emotion and using that emotionless state from time to time to keep myself from exploding on people. I have far more problems than I recognize although having a few unrecognized may help my mental health and keep me from over working myself regardless I will push on!
There are things I achieved in a year that is unbelievable and almost impossible to imagine especially for other users on this site and I will list them.
4k+ Followers seriously how and the hell did I do this?!
18 Friends although I use that loosely a lot of them I asked because I admired their books and haven't had prolonged interaction.
10k+ reads on a book this is the very one of which I speak.
17 Books currently. (4 were deleted)
367 pages between all my books seriously how in the hell did I write one every day I've been taking breaks a lot! (4 deleted books not included)
Let's see what year two holds!
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Drawings from my Dear Sister
Random#234 in Random on 10/13/17 This a book to display the art my sister draws for me and occasionally my own. Home of the Artists of Wattpad which is collection of pages dedicated to showing off artists works and allow them more exposure...
