I can't run fast enough to escape this depression it's perpetual...why does the best thing to happen to me ruin me in the end, I can't function anymore I've lost the will to do almost anything all because I can't stop reliving the loss it's like PTSD I see it happen over and over again each time ripping my heart to shreds to watch one you love die in your arms over and over is the worst kind of torture and honestly I fear I won't be able to continue like this, I wish I had somebody to hug and love just everyday just to forget it all because when I'm alone that loneliness and loss is compounded many times over, I honestly question how I managed to function for these 5 years when the loss was actually fresh in everyone's mind, I never felt like this although I may have disguised my pain behind a noble goal "To better myself until I was worthy of her hand." She was a Queen and I was a mere knight of her court but after all of this I know it was just to cope honestly I was never worthy of her hand and I doubt I ever will be.
I created this online family to cope with this loss and to give myself something to live for as my life was now pointless having lost my wife and most of my family honestly it's selfish I know it is but we have all learned to lean on each other at some point many of you I've talked to you about very personal things unfortunately my strength is failing me so I must depend on you despite my reluctance to heed anyone's words.
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Drawings from my Dear Sister
De Todo#234 in Random on 10/13/17 This a book to display the art my sister draws for me and occasionally my own. Home of the Artists of Wattpad which is collection of pages dedicated to showing off artists works and allow them more exposure...
