Learning to live

Learning to live: katniss an peeta

I forced a piece of chicken down my throat as I stood nervously watching the monitor. It was Effie an haymitch's turn with Caesar, Annie an Luca had been an surprisingly she held her shit together really well. Effie was telling Caesar how amazing it was planning, mine an peeta's wedding An how happy she is me an peeta are married. Haymitch just sat there like he usually does not phased by anything or anyone.

Johanna seemed distant since her an gales interview and gale disappeared right after it.

Effie and haymitch's interview seemed to go on forever, which I was glad for. I hadn't saw peeta since the argument we had this morning. So I had no idea how he would act with me.

"After the break we have panems sweethearts, my all time favourites, katniss everdeen an peeta mellark"

A nervous feeling settled in the pit of my stomach.

The audience went crazy, even when the cameras shut off.

"Katniss, you an peeta are on in 3" the director called.

Flavius, Octavia an Vienna ran over adjusting me. Re straightening my now hip length hair. Redoing my eyeliner.

Effie rushed over making sure everything was on point.

"Where's peeta?" Effie asked out of breath.

"You tell me" I huffed

"What?" She seemed confused.

"Doesn't matter"

At that point peeta walked over.

"Hey" he awkwardly said.

"Hi" I replied.

"Can't I talk to you for a sec?" He asked

Before I could reply the director came over,

"You guys are on in one minute, so you got to come on stage"

Me an peeta both walked on to the stage as the crowd went wild.

"Look kat I'm sorry about before, I was stupid, I was overly tired, being up all night with Luca. I just didn't think" peeta grabbed my hand.

"I know, I think it's time I let go" I sighed.

"You don't have to katniss, you don't"

Again I was about to reply until the cameras came back on illuminating every screen in the studio.

"Hello panem! I'm Caesar flickerman an tonight we finally have panems most famous couple. From district 12. Katniss everdeen and peeta mellark". Caesar turned to walk toward us. Me an peeta stood up, Caesar greeting us both with hugs.

"Peeta, katniss, it's been too long" he smiled. "What is it 4 years?"

"About that yeah" peeta said.

"So what have you both been up you apart from drunken nights?"

I felt my face heat up with embarrassment.

"Come on, we've all seen the pictures in the papers" Caesar laughed.

"Guilty" I cheekily smiled.

"Ahhhh the girl on fire is still as cheeky as ever, I love it" Caesar beamed.

"So what's new with you two?" He asked changing subject

Me an peeta looked at each other an I gave a slight nod. Peeta is always better with words an knows how to hit them hard. Like when he hit the bombshell before the quarter quell. Sending the whole of panem into uproar.

"Actually, we renewed out vows 2 days ago, with the wedding we never had" he simply said.

The crowd gasped.

I could feel a smile escaping from the corners of my mouth.

"My my, that's amazing congratulations" he shook peeta's hand.

"So any plans to start a family? We all have seen how amazon you both are with Luca, Annie an the late finnick's son"

I knew he would ask personal questions.

I spoke before peeta had the chance to.

"Well I think we both would like kids. But after everything that has happened in panem in the past 4 years we just don't think the time is right. We both have been through so much an lost so many people, the time just isn't right yet"

"Yeah I agree with katniss, you know it's hard to think about everything we have actually been threw. I mean this time 4 years ago, I thought katniss was a mutt an she wanted to kill me. And now we're both happier than we could ever be, well I am. I hope katniss feels the same"

This caused the crowd to giggle abit.

"I hope we have a family one day" he added.

"Well peeta I think that's lovely" Caesar smiled.

"Am I right folks?" Caesar said to the audience.

The interview carried on for another 15 minutes or so, peeta answering most of the questions. Peeta an Caesar having the same banter as usual.

I still couldn't get the baby question out of my head. I wasn't getting any younger. Only older. More things could go wrong. The older you are, the harder the pregnancy. I knew I would have to agree one day because it would break peeta's heart never having a child. I had a lot of thinking to do.