Learning to live

Learning to live: wedding

my heart almost beat out of my chest all the people sitting behind them doors.

"You ready?" Haymitch asked.

"Errr" I laughed.

"Okay delly an daisy you two first" Effie promptly said pushing delly an daisy out.

"God I look so fat" delly sighed.

"Dell, you're pregnant you look beautiful" Johanna rolled her eyes.

Delly looked really ill,

"It will be okay, now go on" Effie said pushing delly an daisy threw the double doors to music.

Annie an Johanna made their way down next.

The music changed an everybody stood. That's when I released they were standing for me, I felt like I could be sick.

"God I feel sick" I said to haymitch

"Are you serious? You survive 2 hunger games and a rebellion with the full country looking up to you and your nervous about this?" Haymitch asked confused.

I just shrugged.

Effie was gone by now, she had taken her seat to watch me. What if I fall? Or throw up? Or mess up my vows?. I couldn't think about it I just had to do it, it is supposed to be the happiest day of your life marrying peeta.

I made my way down the aisle, haymitch linking my arm.

Clara started taking pictures.

"Just think tonight you can make as much noise as you want, having a penthouse suit nobody can hear you both moaning" haymitch said.

I was mortified. I felt my face turn red an had to try an suppress my my laughter

"Oh my god" I said under my breath.

I looked over at peeta who was smiling like a Cheshire Cat. I scanned the crowd seeing who turned up, my grey eyes landing on my mothers blue ones. I had not time to dwell on her presence, I wasn't sure how I actually felt about her presence.

haymitch kissed my cheek 'handing me over' to peeta.

"You think you made the right choice?" Peeta whispered.

"Ermm... Most definitely" I whispered back.

the vicar started the ceremony asking us to repeat vows.

"You may now kiss the bride" the vicar said an peeta's eyes lit up.

He crashed his lips into mine an I forgot that anybody else was in the room. I finally had the boy with the bread.

Clara took more pictures of everybody together, before Effie ushered us all out so the tables could be set up for the speeches an wedding breakfast.

"I can't believe I'm married to katniss everdeen" peeta laughed.

"katniss mellark" I corrected.

"Katniss mellark" he laughed shaking his head. "It still seems so crazy to me"

"Me too" I smiled.

While we all waited to be aloud back in, people came to congratulate us, president paylor must of bought us at least 10 gifts.

"God katniss I remember the shaken up girl who came to 8 an was determined to help us all. Look at you now looking all beautiful" she said hugging me.

"Thank you" I smiled.

she walked off joining Johanna, Annie an a few others in conversation.

I turned back around to peeta feeling the luckiest I have ever felt.

"Excuse me, turning your back on me again?" A familiar voice said from behind me.

I looked at peeta's smiling face before turning around. There was beetee stood with haymitch. Looking almost as he did before the quarter quell.

"Beetee.." I was too shocked to speak.

"How are you katniss?" He asked hugging me.

"I'm great" I laughed think about all the surprise visitors I had today. A pang of guilt settled in my stomach.

"Will you excuse me I have to do something?" I asked beetee.

"Of course! I want to find gale anyway I haven't spoke to him in months" beetee said slowly walking away.

"What's up?" Peeta wondered.

"I have to speak to my mother" I sighed wondering what she would say. I hadn't opened any of her letters, she had sent one a week with out fail since I got back to 12. I guess Effie sent her an invite.

Peeta just sympathetically smiled rubbing my back. I spotted Effie across the room, she would know where everybody at this wedding was at this exact moment. The place was too big to go in search myself.

Effie stood with a drink in hand looking rather stressed.

"Effie?" I politely asked.

"Yes katniss dear"

"Do you, do you know where my mother is?"

her eyes seemed to widen in surprise.

"Well about 5minutes ago she was at the bar talking to delly" she nervously smiled.

I walked off taking a deep breath wondering what she would say to me, what I would say to her. As I neared the bar I could see delly, her orange bridesmaid dress an flowing blonde hair proving it was her. Next to her an awfully skinny woman wearing a long sea blue dress. I knew instantly she was my mother. Every step I took closer my heart beat faster leaving ringing in my ear.

"mum?" I asked still unsure.

the blonde woman seemed to freeze mid sentence, not too sure wether to turn around or not.

"Mum" I repeated more loudly, more clearly

this time the almost unrecognisable woman spun round.

"Katniss I can't believe, you just look, I'm sorry I can't even speak" her voice seemed to crack.

I didn't know what to say.

"Thank you for coming" is all I managed with a smile.

She looked disappointed an hurt.

"I'm sorry I haven't spoke to you in almost 2 years, I'm sorry I haven't opened your letters. I'm just sorry you make me so mad an I don't know why. Most of all I'm sorry I'm scared to speak to you" I looked to the ground not wanting to see my mothers reaction.

"katniss I haven't come for an apology I've come because you're my daughter" she pulled my chin up."and I may think you're too young but anybody can see how much that boy loves you, an how much you love him" she told me.

I smiled at her.

"I just want you to let me be in your life katniss" her voice cracked again.

"Okay" this time my voice cracked. "Okay".

She looked shocked.

"Thank you" she said hugging me.

A piercing sound from a microphone broke our hug.

It was Effie. "Ladies an gentle men if you would all like to make your way to the ballroom. As you walk in there is a seating chart showing where you are sitting, so if you would take a look and find your seat, the bride an groom will be in shortly after"

"Well that's me" my mother smiled. "I will see you after speeches?" She asked.

"I'd like that" I smiled back.

As my mother walked away, peeta walked towards me. My mother stopped dead in her tracks, stopping peeta in front of her. I thought she was going to shout at him or something, but instead she hugged him. A warm feeling spread round my body, the feeling I had when peeta proposed. The feeling I get when I'm with peeta. The warm feeling that tells me life is good an it will all be okay. The warm feeling that helps me through.