Learning to live

Learning to live: anniversary

Learning to live: anniversary

Today was the day I dreaded every single year. The day I lost so many people. My little sister prim barely 13. Finnick who felt like my brother, finnick whom died for me. Messalla, Cressida, castor, homes, Jackson, Boggs and so many more. Everyone in the whole of panem would celebrated today. When president snow fell from power. But me and all my friends celebrated more than that. Peeta would cook and everyone would come to our house. We would light candles an have a sort of memorial for them. Annie got better with it each year, she would still have flash backs to everything, just like peeta. Johanna peeta and Annie had a bond that nobody could break. They all had this same sad look in their eye every once in a while. Everyone would but there's would be a different look of sadness. They never talk about what happened in the mansion really an nobody feels the need to ask them.

Peeta was still asleep sprawled out on his stomach his head turned to the right.
I had this horrible sickness in the pit of my stomach which I had most years on this day. December 1st. I must have sat Up a little too fast because vomit seemed to be racing up my stomach. I leaped out of bed and ran to the toilet as fast as I could.
After a few rounds of being sick I played my game in my head. This day brought new surprises each year for me. I stumbled back to my bedroom where peeta was still asleep. My burst out of bed obviously not disturbing him. I walked over to the window wondering what the day would be like. Pushing open the curtains a thick layer of snow covered the ground an roofs in the victors village. It snowed the day it happened. I remember the snow crunching under my feet as we made our way through the Capitol. The cold now December wind turning people's faces pink.
Today the air was foggy outside an rather dull. The living room an landing light were on in haymitch an effies house. They must have come home for today. I kind of hoped they would, it wouldn't be the same with out them here. I looked over to Annie's house an her lights were on too. Luca will of woken up early. Johanna's were still off. I had no clue if gale was there too. Thom and Delly's were on. Everybody was awake early.
I looked at the clock on my beside table. 7:30am. I really was early.
I decided I may as well get up an start this horrible day.
I switched the down stairs tv on deciding to watch the news. This would probably turn out to be a bad idea considering it was the 4th anniversary week of the ending of the rebellion. I sat down waiting to see something bad. Instead a familiar laugh caught my attention. Finnick. They shown a clip of me, finnick, and gale all messing around joking before everything turned bad. The camera panned onto Boggs concentrating on the Holo. Then homes doing laps and accidentally tripping over rubble. The whole camp bursting out into laughter. Even Boggs and Jackson. Then zooming in on peeta who had his handcuffs so tight his hands were a purplish colour. He was even smiling. Not just his mouth but his eyes were too. They cut the clip an zoomed back to the presenter who started to talk about the "starsqaud" and how they helped us win the rebellion. She spun some story that wasn't completely true but was basically harmless and made us seem better people than we actually were.
Heavy footsteps pounded down the stairs. This caused me to giggle a little. Thinking back to the time I took him into the woods with me to hunt an he scared off all the game I could of caught. I didn't bother me because we had more than enough food at home an more than enough money to live off. I remember what he said to me that day after he realised he was the reason we hadn't caught anything.
"Wow how the hell did I survive the hunger games?"
At first I looked at him so shocked that he would actually would say that but then something about the way he said it caused me to laugh. I think that's when I accepted that my past can not now define the future I could have.
"Good morning" peeta said to me in a husky voice
"Morning"
"are you okay?" He asked concerned obviously knowing what day it is
"I'm okay" I replied.
He studied My face checking I was actually okay.
"See" I smiled.
"Hmmmm" he still looked suspicious
"What time is everyone coming?" He asked
"1" i replied
"Oh good that gives enough time for the beef to cook so it will be tender" he told me
I looked at him smiling realising how much I did love peeta. I mean I did know how much I loved him but little things like that really made me appreciate him.
"Hello" a deep voice boomed from the front door.
Haymitch appeared in the doorway.
"How the hell did you get in here?" I asked
"Spare key" he shrugged.
"Jesus Christ haymitch" I almost shouted.
"Calm down sweet heart"
"No I won't calm down! We don't hear off you in over a month and you just show up in my living room on a Tuesday morning" i angrily said
"Look do you think we would miss today?"
"I don't care haymitch is still rude" I shrugged.
He brushed it off. "So what've I missed"
"More like what haven't you missed" peeta tried to lighten up the room.
"Delly had her baby" peeta smiled.
"Ahh lovely boy or girl?" He asked
"Girl she called her phoebe"
"Unusual but I like it"
He waited a beat before he added "anyway I'll see you both this afternoon at dinner" he stood up to leave.
"Nice seeing you kids"
I shook my head sighing.
"Goodbye haymitch" I shouted.
I turned to speak to peeta and a wave of sickness passed through me again I had to jump an run to the downstairs toilet.
I could hear peeta calling after me but was more concerned about actually making it to the toilet.
After I finished being sick I walked back into the living room.
"Kat are you okay?"
"Yeah I think today is just getting to me that's all, I feel fine now"
He studied my face again.
"Peeta I'm fine"
He looked at me again.
"Seriously" I laughed."But I would love a coffee"
Peeta rolled his eyes making his way to the kitchen.
"Love you" I shouted.
"Yeah yeah" he shouted back.