The Girl That No One Noticed...

Chapter 51

                                                   Sang

I was right the ride took forever, and by the time we got to wherever it was they were taking me I was about ready to jump out the window if they didn't let me out of the car. Even as I climbed out the door however the guys crowded around, scared I would bolt from them again, they backed away somewhat as Phil ordered them to do so, but they still didn't wander far. "Sang I know your mad, but I did this for both of us not just myself. You can't keep running all your life, just trust them or try to, even if you never speak to me again I don't regret helping them." Phil stated firmly on his whispered words, keeping this talk between us alone. 

"I don't hate you Phil I'm just disappointed, you know exactly why I wanted to run. The only question I have is why did you do it, why did you stop me?" I whispered out sadly. "Because I wasn't about to take another chance of losing you. I know you're scared for those boys but they're scared for you too, they're a lot stronger than you think, it's not always a bad thing to lean a little on others." Phil sighed out. "And if leaning on them gets someone killed?" I asked curtly. "At least give it a chance Sang you owe them that much, you owe yourself that much too, you could be happy here, if you tried to be." I mulled over Phil's words a second even as the fears tried inkling in. 

"I'll try, but no promises old man, if it doesn't work out I'm gone whether you help me or not." I stated firmly. "Sounds fair enough, now you best get going, you have a lot of worried and upset boys to talk too." Phil waved before driving off in a hurry as I chuckled softly after him, the old man was good at giving a speech when he wanted to but didn't mean he liked to stick around afterwards. "Well, time to hear the music." I frowned as I headed into the large house, surrounded by the four who'd been sent as a capture/bodyguard team. I didn't really get to enjoy the scenery as I was ushered into a room full of the rest of the group, none looking all that happy to be awake at the current moment.

 The moment they saw me they all started talking at once, except Owen of course but his intense gaze spoke volumes. "Hey." I muttered out to the group. "Trouble you try to f***ing drug us and disappear on us and all we get is a sh*ty 'hey'!" Gabe shouted I winced at the accusation. "I'm sorry about the sedative, but I'm not sorry about disappearing. I told you not to come after me, you should have just let me go." I answered back, emotionless on the outside, inside I was trying not to break down in front of all of them. "Ms. Sorenson, why did you really run, and don't try lying to me like you have my team." Owen's question was a command and I found myself tensing at it.

 "Well part of it's because of things like that, you scold and coddle me like I'm some child that needs babysitting. I do not appreciate nor do I accept that kind of treatment, I am a grown woman that has seen some sh*t in her life but that doesn't make me incapable of living my life. I will live my life the way I see fit and if anyone tries to stop me or change me in ways I do not want to be changed then I will fight for every single part of me that makes me who I am. If that means disappearing then so be it." I growled out as I stared down the steel eyed gaze, I wasn't about to back down anytime soon. 

"We only want to keep you safe Pookie." Sean murmured softly to the side as I sent a quick look his way before meeting each of their gazes one by one. "If you want to keep me safe then you have to stop smothering me, I know how to fight, to defend myself and if you smother that part out of me then you're doing more harm than good." I spat at the group letting my anger rage inside to keep my other emotions at bay. "But..." North started out but I quickly cut him off. "No, 'buts' about it. You won't always be there to help me so I have to keep my skills fresh not let them get weaker like I have been, if you want me safe then you have to let me fight." I ordered out as they did that quick look that shared so much information I couldn't read.

 "We could arrange something my little bird." Raven murmured kindly and I nodded back at him in thanks before the others voiced their agreed acceptance. "Sang, if that's part of it, then what else is there?" Axel's smooth voice didn't help me from tensing at his words, that's the part I was hoping to avoid, I decided to break it up and go for telling the less painful half. "I left because I went soft, I couldn't defend myself during the attack so what use was I to keeping all of you safe." I shrugged bitterly. "Cupcake, you did great fighting back, even the best of us can have bad days." Luke answered gently. 

"That's just it Luke, I can't afford to have a bad day, a bad day in my books means someone dies." I stated on a huff as he frowned that puppy dog frown, nearly breaking my heart at the sight. "Sang, you're the strongest most amazing girl I've ever met but right now your just being stupid." I was shocked at Corey's statement and I wasn't the only one considering the jaws dropping around me. "And just what do you mean by that?" I questioned back, lips pursed in frustration. "I think what my twin is saying is we're all a team and if you've ever heard the saying 'there's no I in team' then you should know the answer." Brandon answered, I stared back at him. 

"Princess, we are a team and you're part of that now, and as part of the team we all look out for each other." Victor stated the fire in his eyes so drastically dim, I hated myself for causing that dimness. "Kind of like the 'musketeer motto' about 'one for all and all for one'." I sighed out as they nodded around me. "But what if it's not that easy?" I breathed out lowly, sadness gripping my heart in an iron fist, cursed, stupid emotions. The question was should I tell them or let myself suffer in silence and keep them safe, latter it is. 

 "What is it you are not telling us Ms. Sorenson?" Owen's question stilled me even more as I looked him right in those steel gray eyes and I knew even as I said the words I was lying through my teeth. "There's nothing for you to worry about Mr. Blackbourne, everything is fine." I nearly bit my tongue at the lie, I never wanted to lie to these guys again but this one was for their own good. "You're lying." Kota stated quiet but firm and I thinned my lips at him, he certainly wasn't helping my internal dilemma. "Ms. Sorenson if you wish to stop being coddled and scolded then I have a condition of my own, you will not lie to us." Owen's stern voice had me scowling back. 

"Don't you fools get it it isn't that easy, it will ruin everything!" I was suddenly in a shouting match with the boss and neither of us looked to be backing down anytime soon. "Then explain to us how it will ruin everything!" he raised back grey eyes burning into me. "Because I don't want to hurt any of you!" I felt the tears welling up again as sorrow started to win over rage, I fought them off as best I could but a few strays slipped out. 

"We want to help you and all you do is push us away!" Owen argued. "I push you away to keep you safe." I sniffled out as I choked back more tears. "We just want to keep you safe Sang, please let us help you." Marc pleaded out. "Aggele mou just tell us what's wrong, we'll figure this out." their coaxing and pleading and kindness was closing in around me and I was breaking down. 

I couldn't fight it off anymore, everything was to much even as they all continued to voice their pleas, I couldn't take it anymore so I cut them off when my pained answer. "Don't you fools get it, I think I'm falling in love with you..." I shouted as I scanned the shocked faces before continuing at their silence. "all of you, and their isn't a d*mn thing any of you can do to help that." I choked out the last bit before I felt my walls crumbling and tears flowing, I was in full on freak out/break down mode, and their wasn't a single thing I could do to stop it.