The Girl That No One Noticed...

Chapter 41

                                               Sang

Have you ever noticed how closets seem like little mini caves, all snug and so so very dark? No, well let me tell you they are, and I don't know if I should be comforted or creeped out by that fact. After hanging out with Victor in the music room for countless hours I had snuck away to this small closet that I'd found during my exploration. It was quiet here, and right now I needed that, just as I'd used music to help take away my thoughts, now I had quiet to think over new ones. 

(A/N Okay a rat just ran by me about two feet away and freaked me out while I was typing this, I scream/squeaked in fear as it stopped to look at me before it freaked out and hid, seriously I have chills. I'm fine when they leave me alone, but invade my turf and scare me, you buggars are going down! Sorry I'll continue the story now.) 

I knew the guys would never find me here, with all the multitude of rooms there was barely a smidge of a chance, after not existing my entire life I had quickly become very good at disappearing and now was no different. I sighed as I looked through my text messages, again, I had skipped lunch and the guys had lit up my phone like crazy wanting to know where I was at. I had made sure to turn off the GPS so they couldn't locate me before sending the quick reply that I was fine and inside the house, somewhere, most of them calmed down after that.

North kept scolding me however, saying I needed to eat and stay healthy, Sean was quick to agree on that fact but I ignored them both, I could skip a meal, it wasn't like it was the first time. I turned my phone off with another sigh as I leaned back against the wall with a soft groan at my internal predicament. I knew for a fact that the guys didn't hate me even after telling them some of the less pleasant details of my past, but that was only part of my problem. I don't know exactly how or when it happened but during spending some time alone with Victor, playing games with Corey and hanging out with all of them as 'friends' they had somehow weaseled their way into my heart, and now they felt like so much more than 'friends', and I was trying to figure out how to cope with that. 

I mean come on, what kind of person likes 14 different guys, not to mention Academy boys that call themselves brothers, all at the same time? It was true, no matter how much I tried or wanted to deny it, I liked every single one of them in their own respective way, and it scared me. I wasn't one to scare easily either, but thinking of all that could happen to any of them, especially if I showed any interest. I felt sick at possible end results of that equation, not to mention the probability of having them crush my heart or something mushy like that when I had to disappear again. 

So I now knew that I liked my guy 'friends' maybe even something more than liked, but just what was I going to do about that one might ask? Nothing, that's what, absolutely nothing. Sure it might cause some troubles for me but it wasn't like I couldn't handle that, what I couldn't handle was any of them getting hurt or breaking up their family dynamic because of me, it wasn't something I ever planned to do, so single and lonely I would stay apparently. So after taking a short nap inside my hide away closet, and a few extra minutes to clear my head, I headed down to the kitchen towards the smell of dinner cooking, and the guys I knew I could never have.

I pasted on a small, sweet, but very fake smile before pushing through the door to the room full of handsome guys, even as pain and sadness of what I could never have pierced a hole in my heart that would forever haunt me. The moment I walked in all the guys started talking at once, sending worried looks my way, I sent back a small but real smile at their reactions. I might not have them the way that I want them, but at least I still had them as 'friends' and I could most certainly live with that, I never wanted to take them out of my life. 

"Pookie, where in this giant of a house have you been, you had us worried sick?" Sean's question had a scolding tone, but it was so adorable I couldn't help the sheepish but sly grin I sent his way. "I'll never tell, but I ended up falling asleep or I would have emerged sooner." I answered lightly, best ignore my heavy heart and enjoy what I have. "Aggele mou, we tried to call you but you wouldn't answer." Silas said, the Greek giants concern cut deep as I sent an apologetic look his way. "Sorry, I turned my phone off, I guess I forgot to turn it back on." I murmured as I quickly slipped it out, turning it on to find a number of missed calls and texts. 

"Well you're here now Sang Baby, so lets get some food into you." North grunted, his scowl was utterly convincing but his eyes held the truth of his concern for me, only serving to make me feel worse for them worrying about me. I just nodded as I sat in a seat and he placed a plateful of food in front of me, I honestly wasn't very hungry after my recent revelation, but I knew I needed to eat, so I did. I stayed mostly silent through the meal as the guys talked and joked all around me, apparently in my absence Luke had pranked North, and North had dumped ice cold water on his brother in retaliation. 

I could tell the guys knew I wasn't all that into the conversation and meal, and the fact was further confirmed when Axel voiced his question if I was alright. "Yeah, just a little tired I guess, it's been a long day." I sighed, surprisingly a yawn came up to escape my lips, making my semi lie all the more believable. "So who's with Trouble tonight?" Gabriel's question was directed to Kota but it froze me in my seat. How in the world had I forgotten the detail that they had set up a schedule of two guys a night sleeping in my bed?! "Raven and Corey have their turn tonight." Kota said in answer. Great the hot tattooed Russian and the way too adorable fellow nerdling were going to be the end of me, they were a deadly combination of a whole different kind. 

"Well, I think I'm going to hit the hay a little early tonight. You guys can come up whenever, goodnight everybody!" I called after sending a quick shrug to Raven and Corey as my heart threatened to kill me at how fast it was pounding, I fled the room as soon as respectably possible as the guys called goodnight's behind me. The questioning voice of Raven being the last I heard as he asked someone what 'hit the hay' meant, I groaned internally at his adorable cluelessness. I headed upstairs to my designated bedroom as fast as my feet could take me and quickly got ready for bead, before settling down in the covers and shutting myself down. The only chance I had of not loosing my mind in the immediate future was falling asleep before the two guys showed up, luckily I was more tired than I originally thought and sleep took over right away, pulling me into dreams involving 14 hot male specimens.