baby jihoon • soonhoon

sixteen.

Soonyoung still can't believe on what Jun said earlier. Sino ba namang maniniwala sa ganun? Mistulang fairytale na pawang mga bata lamang ang naniniwala. But he just can't accept the fact na si Uji Lee ang Jihoon na inaalagaan nya ngayon. Samantalang dati ito pa ang nambubully sakanya. Umiling nalang sya habang naglalakad. Masyado nyang dinidibdib ang mga pangyayari. Eh wala naman syang dibdib (ಥ_ಥ) parang si Jeonghan wala. Pinipilit lang talagang meron.

He left a heavy sigh before knocking on the door. He doesn't even know what possibly could happen sooner or later.

Bumukas ang pinto, at agad nitong inilabas si Jun at si Jihoon. Nakangiti si Jihoon kay Soonyoung habang si Soonyoung ay wlang ka emoemosyon ang mukha.

"Iuuwi ko na sya" sabi ni Soonyoung at binuhat si Jihoon.

"...soons, don't make him cry okay?" bilin ni Jun bago bitawan si Jihoon. Natatakot sya sa pwedeng magawa ni Soonyoung, sa pwedeng masabi nito at sa pwedeng maging reaksyon nito.

"I'll try not to" pilit na mainahong sabi ni Soonyoung at umuwi na kasama si Jihoon.

***

"Aamin ka na ba?" tanong ni Soonyoung sa bata. Medyo nagulat si Jihoon sa tinanong ni Soonyoung. What does he mean?

"C'mon Uji. You're fooling me for over a month" Soonyoung flashes a smirk, enough to make Jihoon scared or should I say Uji

"A.. ahm"

"I know, alam ko na ang lahat. Why are you like that? Why didn't you let me know?! Pinakain kita, binihisan, nag trabaho ako para sayo then this came up?!" Soonyoung's eyes is burning angry. It happened na gusto ni Jihoon mag anyong tao as Soonyoung as then a magic smoke suddenly filled up the baby and a milky white man came up.

"U.. uji"

"A-ako nga Soonyoung" tinignan syang mabuti ni Soonyoung na para bang inuusisa ng mabuti.

"You did't answer my question yet. Why did you fool me!?" the older started to yell again. And every word that came out to his mouth is like a monster that scares Jihoon word by word.

"I.. im sorry I- I was uhm you know I was too afraid to tell you this, alam ko S.. soonyoung mali ako. Hindi ko agad naisip kung ano yung magiging kahihitnan nitong pag lilihim ko sayo but please b.. believe me I should tell you this but you confront me first" Jihoon looked straight to Soonyoung's eyes as the older was.

Alam ni Jihoon sa sarili nya na galit talaga si Soonyoung, sa mga. mata palang nito na nanlilisik sa galit. Kung ikaw ang makakakita nito, ikaw mismo sa sarili mo sasabihing mas gugustuhin mo pang makulong sa kwarto kesa makita syang ganito. Seeing Soonyoung like this suddenly became Jihoon's weakness

"You are? Really you are? How pathetic you are Uji. Binigay ko lahat but then ito ka pala? Ayos lang naman yung ganyan pero bakit nag lihim ka?!"

"I.. im s-sorry as I s.. said earlier I-I was afraid" younger voice was trembling with fear like the older but in madness.

"How can you play with me like this Jihoon? Nagpakapagod akong humanap ng trabaho, but you can still work on your own" Jihoon look up as he blink continuously trying not to cry. Every word that coming out on Soonyoung mouth is like a knife that stabbing Jihoon again and again.

"I-m sorry" all could Jihoon say.

"Don't you afraid this day might happened? The day were it can be over, lose everything we had, lose everything we had shared... all of the memories can just fade away" now Soonyoung can't control it anymore. He burst in tears, takot si Soonyoung sa posibleng mangyari. Pero mas takot sya kay Uji na nasa harapan nya ngayon. Nangunguna ang galit, ni walang katiting na guiltness na nararamdaman.

"Let's just end this like a break up.
Let's just continue as a stranger like we used to be back then. Simula ng dumating ka sa buhay ko, my life is in mess!" Jihoon can't hold it anymore and let go of his tears. Nasasaktan nanaman sya, hindi ba dapat handa na sya? Pinag handaan nya tong araw na ito pero bakit nasasaktan sya? Bakit mistulang paulit ulit syang sinasaksak ng mga salita ni Soonyoung, hindi lang saksak. Sakala, murder, baril at kung ano ano pa.

"Inaalala lang kita"

"You don't really care for me. You just lied to me. So why would I help you, when you already make a reason not to help you?" tinaasan ni Soonyoung ng kilay si Jihoon dahilan para ito'y mapayuko. Wala na, wala na syang masabi, wala na syang maidadahilan pa.

"You never care for me anyway. And I'm so dumb that I believe in your lies, in your fake words convincing me you really do! H.. how Jihoon? How could you play with me that well?" the younger lift up his hand then cups the older's cheeks. He looked at his eyes and sadly smile.

"I'm sorry for all. Aalis nalang ako Soonyoung. Yun naman talaga ang dapat ginagawa sa mga salot hindi ba? Ang umalis dapat at hindi na muling magpakita pa" mapait na ngumiti si Jihoon. Half of him saying to leave but half of him saying to stay. Parehas na may dahilan, kung aalis sya then baka magiging mabuti yung buhay ni Soonyoung dahil wala ng pabigat sakanya. Kung mananatili naman sya gagawa sya ng paraan para mabalik yung dati even tho it's kinda impossible to happened.

"B.. but U-" Jihoon placed his index finger to Soonyoung's lip that make the older stopped.

"Shh don't worry I'll be fine Soonyoung. Thank you for all, and for all the memories. I hope you enjoy it a lil tho you worked for it ne? I'm sorry you had this experienced because of me. Don't worry I'll leave, no more problems for you" then Jihoon took a step back and turn back.

"... ang sakit palang makita kang ganyan" Soonyoung whispered as he stared at Jihoon's back.

Two steps...

"Kailangan mo ba talagang umalis Ji? Pwede namang mag stay ka nalang. I'm sorry alam ko sumobra ako. I just can't control my anger ealier that's why I -" Jihoon faced him.

"I really need to Soonyoung. I really need to leave, ikaw na nga nag sabi pabigat lang ako. why work for me when I can do it my own"

"I kn-"

"Goodbye Soonyoung" and for the second time Jihoon turn back and walk away leaving the room. Naiwan si Soonyoung na nakatulala sa pinto, iniwang nag iisa. He burst out crying and kneeled on the floor. Wala na, wala na yung matagal na pinag iingatan nya. Wala na lahat...

What have I done... I'm sorry Jihoon I'll promise to take you back. What's mine is mine.