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The Pretty Blonde & Rejection

It's almost the end of the first week of school. I hanged out with Alice and Harper in the cafeteria but of course I rarely say anything. It was lunch and I was being quiet as usual when Rose popped out of nowhere.

"Hello!" She said. We all said hi to Rose. "Guess who I met in one of my classes!" She said. A girl with pretty blonde hair and green eyes came up to us. "Hello! I'm Maxell!" She introduced herself. "I'm Harper!" Harper replied back. "Alice." Alice joined in. "I'm Willow....." I said quietly but loud enough for her to hear. "Nice to meet you all!" She said smiling. "I'm hungry! Let's go to the student store!" Rose said to all of us. We all nodded or said sure and got up from the benches and headed to the student store. I was leaning on one of the poles while Rose went to by some hot chips.

When she was done we all started to head back to the cafeteria. As we were heading back a male voice shouted towards our direction. I didn't pay much mind to it so I went on my phone and see what's up on social media. But it doesn't mean I didn't hear what was going on.

From what I can get glimpse of Rose stepped in front of the boy. "Hello! May I help you?" She asked. I wouldn't be surprised if the boy wanted to talk to her she's pretty anyways and kind. "Actually, I just wanted to talk to her." Out of the corner of the eye the boy walked up to me. I saw Rose's face in pure shock while Harper started laughing. I turned my phone off and slowly backed away from the boy but he got closer and I had no where to back up to. "Listen my friend wa-" the boy was interrupted by Rose pulling my arm away from him nearly tripping over my feet. Everything happened so fast I don't even had enough time to process everything.

"Sorry! She's not interested!" She said to him. "What! She didn't say that come on let me talk to her!!!" He yelled. "Nope! I'm her sister and I say she's not interested!!!" Rose yelled back and we all walked back to the cafeteria hearing the hollers and laughter of the other boys that watched the whole thing. "That was something." Maxell commented. "Indeed it was." Alice commented on. "Uhhhh....what just happened exactly?...." I asked. "Don't worry about! If anything you shouldn't be dating at all!" Rose said. "Dating? I've never dated anyone or had the idea of being in one." I said to her. "Good let's keep it that way!" She said.

"It's time for class!" Harper called out. We all started heading to our next class. I was confused, is it that bad to be in a relationship with someone? I mean I have never experienced love towards another......or anyone for that matter. Just the thought of it made me shiver in fear and random scenarios started to build in my head.

That's until I realized.....I won't live to see my wedding....or the birth of my first child. Why do I have to think about something like this if I might correction will! Not live to see through it all. I shouldn't be worrying about this to begin with......it cause more grief and sorrow knowingly I won't live to see such amazing milestones in my life. Plus they don't know about it.....and I'm too afraid to tell them about my conditions and I'm only alive until the clock in my lifespan have reached zero. Will they leave me? Will they stay beside me? Will I be burden?.....who knows.....there's a possibility I won't get to see myself graduate high school possibly with friends.

Faith is cruel at times like these.....