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2nd Semester

It was already second semester meaning half of the school year already went by so fast. I didn't get a lot for Christmas just a multi media sketchbook and art pens from my cousin. She knows I love to draw a lot. It was my only escape world from this reality. I mean if we see my old drawings back in middle school people might be very concern of me......if they ever were that is. I always draw creepy stuff because it was fun and interesting too see how creepy you can make something. Then I had this other side of me where I just draw absolutely adorable stuff. Sometimes they end up being a full on doodle of creepy or cute. I drew one of food with cute faces on them with puns in my biology class inspired by the one and only Jamie!

Yea....the one thing I've learned about her she likes puns.....like a lot. Besides that, I've learned a lot about my friends. Their interest, music, hobbies. Oddly enough we had a lot of things in common with one another. We rarely talked about personal life and our past.

It was the best, especially how depressing it can get real fast. I haven't told them about my heart condition and I don't plan to.....a lot of shit happened to me so I didn't want to burden them with this. I can imagined the devastating looks on their faces especially Harper. Harper and me are the closest out of the rest. She tells me what goes on in her family and I feel bad for her.

Because I know what it feels like to have a broken family......and she doesn't deserve it if anything. She's sweet, kind, and full of amazing surprises. So I let her rant about them and talk shit about them all she wants. Sometimes I talked about mine but not a lot. If anything, we share ideas and music to one another. I was so happy to meet someone like her. Until I remembered about my condition.

At times when I think about it I kind of wish we didn't cross paths or she'll just forget about me soon. But she's different from anyone I have encountered. Now I feel guilty of becoming her friend since I won't be staying for long.

"Willow!" A cheerful familiar call was heard towards my direction. Snapping out of my thoughts, I turned my head towards the direction of the call. I was greeted then none other Harper with her usual kind smile. I can't help but smile back. I don't know why but something about her makes me smile. It's like she knows how to shine the light in my dark world.

"Hi Harper!" I said to her as she came close. "What are you doing here by yourself?" She asked. "Just being a loner." I said teasingly. "Ha ha ha very funny Willow! But really why are you here?" She asked concern and worry laced in her voice. "I was just thinking that's all." I told her. "Like what?" She asked. When she asked me that I wanted to avoid that question but I know her better then that. "I was thinking about life." I told her. "What's so special about life?" She asked me.

I let out a small chuckle. "Nothing really....." I started, "it's just that how life can treat you wrong for a long period of time.....leaving you in the darkness for so long until you met with people who brought you out of it......" I finished saying. "But your okay! Your with us! And nothing will separate us not even death!" Harper said with a huge smile on her face.

I was taken a back from her saying that but I smiled anyways. "Your right....not even death can separate us....." I said with a bit relief.

Even if my time is close.....