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Sophomore.....the year of problems

It was finally the beginning of my Sophomore year. I was so excited to see my friends again. Alice, Maxell, Harper, Nabi, Shrimpy, Jamie, Anya, and Katila! It felt like forever since I saw them.

I walked through the gates of my school. Looking for my friends and my classes. My first class was AP world history with a teacher named Ms.Filler. From my understanding Harper texted me over the summer and we got most of our classes together besides 4th and 2nd which is Spanish and Geometry. I also remembered we teased Alice for not having any classes with us. I chuckled remembering what we said in that group chat.

I walked up to the tables in my school until I heard multiple familiar voices? Am I hearing things again? I looked around until I heard it again. "Willow!" I turned around and see the whole group running towards me getting ready to tackled me.

Oh shit.....I thought to myself. I was then engulfed by the power of our strong friendship which is known as hugs. At least this is the tackle I much enjoy then the ones in football. "How was your summer!" Maxell asked cheerfully. "Nothing special just stayed home most of the time watching Netflix and sleep." I said, "except last week me Alice and Harper went to the beach." I added. "Nerd." Jamie said. "Why thank you! Plus you kind of ruined my summer with that chapter update on your story in Wattpad." I said. "Your welcome." She said laughing. "Do we have any classes together?" Nabi asked me. "I don't know let's see." I pulled out my schedule and checked if I had any classes with Nabi and the others. I have Geometry, English and P.E. with Maxell, theater class with Anya, Jamie for Spanish and English as well. "Do you guys have any clue what's homeroom about?" I asked them. They all just shrugged their shoulders. They recently added another class called homeroom this year. Most of us really aren't to happy or stocked about it. Besides that, I'm so glad to be back in school. I rather be in school then home. Not because I'm such a nerd and stuff is that things at home aren't pleasant.

Yea.....that's the word....

Flashback
"This is why no one likes you!" My sister yelled at my face. "It's not my fault that everyone is so judgmental!" I yelled back at her. "Your always busy! You don't even bother helping us!!!" She yelled. "It's not my fault that I want to get out of this hell hole!" I slammed the door in front of her face. She opened it and walked inside my room. She's really pushing my buttons. "MAYBE IF YOU OPEN UP TO US THEN WILL HELP YOU!" She screamed at me. "HELP ME! I DON'T NEED YOUR GUYS HELP! YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I'VE WENT THROUGH SO STOP PRETENDING YOU ALL KNOW ME!" I screamed back, "YOU GUYS WON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I FEEL EVERYDAY! YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO HAVE PROBLEMS! FINALLY, YOU WON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE OUTCASTED!"

"Then just tell us! You always have secrets that you don't like to tell us! We're family!" She yelled at me. That's not true.....we are NOT a family. "Your wrong there little sister.......we are not a family.....there was never a family!" I yelled at her running out of the room, out of the house.

I need to calm down.....I took deep breathes in and out. I took my earbuds out and plugged them into my phone and my ears. It's time for me to disconnect from reality for awhile.

They will never understand.....

End of flashback

"Willow?....Willow.....Willow!" Harper yelled at me getting my attention. I snapped back to reality and looked at her with a smile. "Sorry, I must have spaced out! You need anything?" I asked her. She looked at me concern. "Are you okay?" She asked me. "Physically or emotionally?" I asked her. "Both." She said. "Physically I'm glad to be here and see you guys emotionally....I'm dying." I said and my eyes widen realizing what I said. Before I said anything to correct my mistake Harper laughed. "Aren't we all!" She said laughing. I laughed nervously going along with her. I forgot how this generation can be at times. But I have to tell her. It's now or never.

"Hey....Harper?" Getting her attention. "Yes Willow?" She said laughing a bit. "I need to te-" I was rudely interrupted by Nabi screaming we had to get to class. I glared at her for disrupting me on something so important but couldn't say anything because she is right. "Guess it's time to get to class." Harper said looking at the time on her phone, "what were you going to say?" She asked me. I thought about it for a moment swallowing down my nervousness. "N-nevermind....it's not that important to begin with, let's get to class shall we!" I said smiling at her.

She smiled back at me and we both headed to class side by side. I mentally criticized myself for not having enough guts and courage to tell her....all of them. After all I do have 3 years left.....it doesn't sound like a long time now.....fuck....

3 years......