request for @icedmochadolan
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i lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling. it's just one of those days where anxiety and depression take over and consume me
*ring ring*
i'm afraid that if i move, i might break down and loose it
*ring ring*
it's like i'm screaming for someone to help me, but i'm stuck in place
*ring ring*
i'll just focus on something and try to take my mind off it
*ring ring*
i take a deep breath in
*ring ring*
i let it out
*ring ring*
in
*ring ring*
and- ugh i can't focus with that stupid ringing
*ring ring*
i jolt upwards and grab my phone, throwing it at the wall. i watch it collide with the wall, shattering the screen and breaking the phone entirely
i drop to the ground and cry
i cry and cry and cry
the door opens, but i don't look up. i'm too busy drowning in a pool of my own tears
i feel someone drop to the ground next to me and pull me into their familiar embrace
the aroma of old spice and rustic woods fills my nose.
the smell is calming and it helps me stop crying
ethan looks at me with his huge hazel orbs "what's wrong, jada?" he asks, his minty breath hitting my face
"i'm worthless, ethan. that's what's wrong. i'm too ugly to be your girlfriend and i'm too fragile to handle the attention i get from everyone. they make me worry about my appearance because they are all so pretty. why can't i be pretty like them?"
"woah baby, hold up for a second. there is absolutely nothing wrong with you" he says placing his hand on my cheek
i start to object, but he beats me to it "and i'm not just saying that. you are truly the most beautiful girl to me. i don't care about other girls appearances because i don't pay attention to them. my eyes, heart, and mind never leave you. you are everything to me and i mean it. you are the air to my lungs and the sun to by sky. you are the light in the dark and the keeper of my heart."
he wipes a single tears that runs down my cheek
"i wish you could see that you are the single rose in a million of thorns, jada"
more tears run down my cheeks
he frantically tries to wipe them away, but isn't fast enough for there are too many
"thank you, ethan. i don't deserve you, but i love you so much"
he smiles and kisses my lips
"i love you so much more baby girl"
i smile and glance at the wall, my eyes landing on my broken phone in the corner
ethan sees the phone and reaches for it
"is this why you didn't answer my phone calls?" he asks laughing
i shrug and giggle as he laughs and hugs me again
this is where i want to be, in his arms, forever
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hope you enjoyed beautiful :)
