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"why'd you do it?" i ask, tears streaming down my face
"i was having a bad day" he whispers
"you can't go shooting people when you have a bad day. it's not-"
"normal" he finishes "but i'm not normal and you know that y/n"
it's quiet for a moment
he suddenly stands up "just admit it, i'm crazy" he screams
i don't say anything as i stand up and place my hand on his face, feeling him calm down under my touch
"when did you stop taking your meds?" i ask
"a few days ago" he mumbles
i take his hands and look into his eyes "ethan, you promised"
he sighs "i know, but baby, i don't feel like myself when i take them"
"but ethan, when you don't take them, you see what happens" a few tears slide down my cheeks "people die"
he uses his thumb to wipe the tears away from my face "i hate seeing you sad"
"then start taking your pills again and i won't be"
he smiles and walks over to the medicine cabinet as i sit back down
he puts one of each pills on his palm before grabbing a glass of water and sitting next to me again
he opens his hand and shows me all ten pills
i nod and he pops them all in his mouth, washing them down with the water
when he finishes, he places the empty glass on the floor and smiles at me
i smile back as he places his hand on my face
"i love you" he says
"i love you too"
he leans in and places his soft lips on mine
i instantly kiss him back as his hands move up and down my arms
the door bell rings throughout the house causing ethan to slowly pull away from the kiss
"i'm going to kill who ever just interrupted us" he says in a low voice
i place both hands on his face, making him look at me "your pills haven't kicked in yet, so please let me handle it"
he nods as i stand up and walk down stairs
the door bell rings again as i open the door a few seconds later
i'm face to face with a guy around my age, holding a pie in his hands
"i- um i'm new to the neighborhood and i thought that i would bring over a pie" he says nervously
i smile and take the pie "thank you. that's very nice"
"you better fucking leave, now" a voice says from behind me
i turn around "i told you i would handle it"
he walks down the stairs and stands beside me
he grabs the pie from my hands and dips his finger in it, before taking it back out and tasting the filling off of his finger
"cherry. i fucking hate cherry" ethan says before throwing the pie at the guy
in seconds, cherry filling covers the poor guy
"stay the fuck away from her. she's mine" ethan says before slamming the door in his face
"that was uncalled for" i say, walking up the stairs and away from him
"he was checking you out. i couldn't just stand there" he shouts, following me
when i reach our room, i turn around and look at him
"so what if he was checking me out? it's not like i would kiss him or anything" i scream at him, furious with his behavior
"but he could've done something to you, if i didn't stop him" he calmly says, walking closer to me
"no he wouldn't have. you are just making stuff up in your mind"
he is within a couple feet when i put my hand out and stop him
"i'm sorry" he whispers
"ethan, sorry doesn't take back what you did. it doesn't bring those people that you killed back"
he looks down at the floor, ashamed of himself
"stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid" he says, tugging on his hair
i take his hands away from his hair as he looks up at me, tears streaming down his face
we slowly sit on the floor as tears continue to stream down his face
"i really didn't mean to throw that pie, i just- he was looking at you like you were a piece of meat. and i am so mad at myself for killing those people, i just thought that you were mad at me and i was having a bad day and i wasn't thinking clearly and i tried to stop myself but i couldn't stop pulling the trigger and-" he breaks down into complete sobs
i rub his back as he leans his head on me
"i never ever want you to be scared of me or of what you think i might do. i love you and i never hurt the ones i love, okay?" he whispers
"okay" i whisper back, placing a soft kiss on his forehead as he starts to calm down
love makes you do crazy things
and sometimes it makes you crazy as well
ethan, the man i love, would do anything for me
and that is what makes him crazy
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