Fated To Love You

28th string - I Love You

RIN’s POV

Why of all times is that guy going into my house?

Darn it.

I must reach this damn thing or else I’m doomed into finding it down there in the mud.

Well…

If you’re wondering what I’m trying to reach, it’s that stupid promise ring.

I was holding onto it when suddenly the doorbell rang and this thing slipped off my hand and got hooked on a protruding nail just here on my balcony.

It kept raining and I can’t still get the damn thing.

“What’s worst than this?!” I cursed under my breath.

Then suddenly, amidst the scary thunder and lightning, I felt hands touch my waist and pull me down.

“Heeeyy!” I managed to say before we could even crash down the floor.

My eyes were still closed when dripping water started to fall down my face. It was cold rain water.

“Darn it! Are you trying to kill yourself?!”

Ah.

It’s him.

I opened my eyes to see a very drenched Marcus. He really had been outside in the rain.

For a second, I stared at him blankly and then I slowly pushed him away and I sat up, unmoving.

“What do you mean? Why are you even here… and I would not even dare kill myself for nothing… I’m just trying to reach for my necklace.” And then I touched the place on my  neck where it usually was.

He suddenly stood up and went into the balcony and reached down at the other side of it just like what I did, but this time he reached it without any strain. He got back inside and closed the glass door separating my room from my balcony and then he threw the necklace with my ring on the floor.

“Next time, don’t even try that stunt if you know you can’t.” He said still with anger.

I reached for my ring and I placed it in my palms and hugged it like it’s the most precious item for me.

But then indeed it is the most.

“Can you just go to another room for a moment?” I told him.

I just can’t face him yet.

Just give me a few minutes to compose myself.

He went out of my room obediently and closed the door gently, leaving me in the dark cold room.

For a few minutes, I laid myself down the cold floor to think. I just can’t find the right reason to face him, nor the right words to say to him now that we have this opportunity.

I told myself that I’m not going to let the pain eat me, but then here I am again, vulnerable and hurting.

I stood up and got a towel from my bathroom and went outside my room. Since the light across the room of my room is lit up, I knew he is in there. I walked going to it. One step at a time. Slowly. Carefully. Like I was being cautious of not wanting to be hurt again.

I turned the knob and went inside. The boy I love was sitting on the floor next to the bed while hugging his knees and his head placed on his knees. Just like a fragile child. He looked like that right now.

I slowly walked towards him. And when I was in front of him, I sat down trying to keep my calm. Then I started to dry his hair with the towel I got. He then suddenly raised his head to look at me.

He stared at me with longing.

Maybe he’s wondering if I’m mad.

Yes. I’m mad. But then the moment I saw him, my heart sank.

And I fell in love again.

He suddenly touched my hand which startled me and stopped me from drying his hair.

“I love you.” Was what he said while looking in my eyes.

But I was so surprised that I didn’t have any word to respond.

What did he just say?

I LOVE YOU.

Suddenly, I saw a tear escape from his eye.

Why did he just cry in front of me?

H-how is this possible?

He then pulled me to an embrace. But then even before I knew it, he was hugging me so tight. His cold palms were touching my dress but then I could feel the chill it was giving me.

“Marcus.” I said but he just embraced me tighter.

“Can we just stay like this way forever?” He mumbled near my ear.

“Marcus—“

“I’m sorry, that I didn’t have the courage to say how much I love you. I’m sorry I know I keep on hurting you… but the moment I heard you were leaving, my feet brought me here. ‘Cause if not today, I might not have the chance to say how I truly feel for you.” He told me.

“And now that you know, am I too late?” He asked me.

I broke away from the hug.

“Did you know that I was so hurt that I wanted to die so bad?! How many times have it been that you did something to me that I thought you never meant? How many times have you made me cry? I know, you never knew about how I felt for you, but I was crumbled to pieces that I tried to be numb. I love you, all the days I had with you… no… not just this time. But I loved you way too long ago. So long that maybe I am hurting like this.” And then I started hitting his chest so hard.

“I felt betrayed again. I felt alone. I felt the worst. I was used. I was not loved, that I told myself that I shouldn’t see you, and when I did, I would be a strong girl not letting you see how wrecked I am. But then, look at me now… crying  like a fool.” He suddenly grabbed my hand hitting his chest but I tried to resist him.

“I’m crying because you said the words I’ve been wanting to hear. I felt so happy inside my heart even if I should be getting mad at you. Why of all people it must be you who I fall in love with…” I cried and cried until he touched my cheek and raised my face.

“I feel so bad that I have hurt the girl I love so much. I’m so sorry.” He uttered while just looking at only me.

He leaned closer and closer and I didn’t know why I felt scared to feel the same sensations again. I closed my eyes not wanting to know what’s next, and before I knew it, his lips touched mine.

I didn’t know what to do but he led me. He moved his lips to mine that as if he only owns it and nibbled on my lower lip. He rained my lips with kisses until he felt me responding to him. I clutched on to his shirt to pull him closer and he placed his other hand on my back to do the same. And then he suddenly pulled away and smirked at me. He then laid me on the floor carefully as if I was one of his fragile possessions. I just stared at him, again being trapped in his gaze. He smiled at me and then leaned in closer and then his lips landed on mine again and our lips started to move in rhythm. Then he slowly moves his lips to the side of my lips and kissed my cheek down to my neck. He kissed it for long and then licked it which gave me a new sensation. And even before knowing it, I was actually drunk from his endless kisses that I just let him do what he wants to do. He kissed my neck again and then kissed my bare shoulder. He repeatedly did it until I felt him leave his mark. His mark that would keep me remember that I am his.

He then pulled away and gave me a peck on the lips one more time before he sat up. I sat up too and he pulled me and let me sit closer to him. We sit next to each other. And I laid my head on his shoulder. He leaned his head on mine and said, “I love you” to me so sweetly.

I didn’t reply but a smile escaped from my lips.

Even if I was mad at him, what he showed me was love. He didn’t need words to make me feel he was sorry. But his sincerity reached me.

I love you.