Fated To Love You

57th String - Non-existent Fate

RIN’s POV

 Will you….. Marry me?

I pretty much understood that question. Because it meant that he wants to be with me forever. He meant that I’m the only girl for him. He meant that he wants me to be his partner for life. I know it may sound crazy but for a second I really felt happy that he asked me that. But then, I guess what could I have answered him if I didn’t see what I saw a while ago, would be different now with the answer I should give him.

I’m sorry.

If I could just turn back time and erase that memory we could have been the happiest people on earth right now with me saying ‘yes’ to him, and us spending the rest of our days together, happily. But then, I can’t do that. I am here, in my reality. And even though it hurts so much, I wouldn’t let myself live in regret and lies, even if that would mean, me being alone again, and never being with the person so much precious to me forever.

It would be a lie if I would answer him with a confused heart.

He slowly took the ring out from its box and was about to slip it on my ring finger when I held his hand in my hands tightly. He looked at me and smiled but I kept my pokerface on.

“Marcus, let’s stop this.” I mumbled.

“Rin, are you okay?” He asked with concern in his voice.

“I can’t accept your proposal so please, let’s stop this.” I told him firmly and I saw his eyes start to fill with confusion.

“Rin, I—I don’t understand.” He said in uncertainty and that pushed me to do the worst in front of all the people who attended his ‘event’ for me.

I snatched the ring from his hand and threw it away somewhere I don’t know. I was just so full of it. I did everything in impulse.

“Let’s break up.” I said as tears started to form in my eyes.

“Wait… No—No! That can’t be. Please.” He pleaded and held on to my wrist but removed his hand and pushed him away from me.

“I’m sorry.” I finally told him and I walked away.

I walked away as every eye turned their judging stares at me. I know right now they must be thinking that I’m the worst for doing that to my boyfriend, but they don’t know anything and their prejudice about me is the least of my concern. Because right now… in this place, I am the most hurt of all.

I ran out of the hotel and just followed wherever my feet would take me. Right now I think that I’m going to lose my mind because of all the torture that I’ve gone through.

“LEE SUNGRIN!” I heard someone scream.

I turned to see who it was and when I saw Jaek sunbae running to me I slowed down and stopped. He embraced me tight and I felt all so warm for the first time in forever.

“Oppa…” I said as I force myself not to cry.

“Sshhhh… It’s alright now. Cry if you would want to cry. I’m just here for you.” He said as he tried to comfort me.

“Oppa… I feel so hurt right here.” I said as I tapped my chest with my hand.

“I know… You must be hurting a lot. I don’t understand why you didn’t accept his proposal, but I know you have a reason for doing that. So I’m here. I’m glad I’m here for you. So you can tell me whatever you want to say.”

“Oppa…” I said and I started to cry like a kid on his chest. “Oppa… it… it… hurts a lot.” And I felt him tapping my back to make me feel that ‘it’s alright’.