Fated To Love You

41st string - Trip to Jeju

AIDEN’s POV:

Uh-oh.

Trouble.

Trouble.

I started to sense that my heart started to race so fast that it could pop out of my chest.

I was finally able to say that “I love” her, and it took away a lot of burden in my chest. I felt relieved after I told her the 3 words I wanted her to hear for so long.

“Aiden…” Her voice sounded so unsure.

She looked at me with surprise creeping up her expression.

I know.

“I—I… Aiden… I appreciate your feelings but…”

You don’t have to tell me…

I hugged her and whispered in her ear, “ I know what you’re gonna say next. But can we just pretend that I didn’t hear that you were about to reject me? I wanted to keep this as a good memory. It’s my first time to confess to a girl so I will just assume that things went well.”

“Aiden… I’m sorry.” She said.

“It’s okay. You have nothing to be sorry about. From now on let’s just pretend I said nothing. But can you just let me be? I want to stick with the feelings I have for you for long even if it would certainly hurt me at one point.” I said and I held her closer in my embrace.

“Aiden… I wish to keep you as my friend. You’re one of the precious guys in my life and I just can’t let you get hurt by me. I can’t afford to lose you…” She said as she pulled away.

“What do you want me to do?” I asked her, my tears threatening to fall.

“There are a lot of girls around better than me. I don’t deserve such a good person as you. You deserve someone who would love you and only you, not someone like me.”  She said and bowed her head.

“Is that so?” I said.

“I’m sorry.” She said and leaned closer.

She tiptoed and then she gave me a peck on my cheek which confused me more. Even though I knew I was blushing, still a surge of sadness ruled over me.

“I love you, but just as a friend. Maybe we should stay away from each other so you could think.” She said and then she slowly walked away leaving me staring at her walk and get back in Marcus’ arms.

In the end. I failed.

When I first thought about confessing to her, I was wishing that she would say that she loves me back. But then I guess I was daydreaming back there for wishing the impossible. Who could actually have the guts to confess to someone who is already taken other than a fool like me?

I knew she has Marcus. But I pushed myself to her.

Maybe I deserve this.

RIN’s POV

“I’m back.” I said gloomily to Marcus who sat on a bench not too far from the bonfire.

“I saw what happened there…” He said, his hands crossed on his chest and his stare focused on the bonfire.

“You gave him a kiss… and suddenly you trailed off. Was that a way to let him chase after you?” He said nonchalantly.

“I’m not really good for an argument right now. Just say whatever you wish to say. I’m so tired.” I said and then sat next to him and then laid my head on his shoulder.